Saturday, October 17, 2009

"i wish you would just pull the trigger"
if you may,

damn..so tired..my ass hurts as if i've been bitten by a shark..my arms aches as if bees were trying to eat it..my face is burning like frying nuggets..this is what i hate about the carpark survey job..but desperate times need desperate measures..oh yeah..desperate..the culmination of 2 months of dying at home ended with a big bang..i'm working for the last 3 days of holidays..need the money..too bad..dick..

did anybody tell you it's bad to make someone wait?.maybe someone should have told you that recently..so all this while it was just an act?.what the fucking hell!?you broke something of mine and you're just gonna walk off pretending nothing happened?.i don't want to make wild accusations but the way i see it,you're just toying around with me..sometimes you are happy and hyped when talking to me,a minute or two later,your energy is diverted to someone else..it's like what the heck..i know i'm a dick..but i've told you my reasons..i'm sorry for what i have ever done..somehow i just know you're lying to me about being so understanding when you don't give a fuck about it..you can play around with me but one day somebody will play yours..and you'll know how it feels..three sentences you might be familiar with princess..

YOU cheat my feelings..YOU gave me false hope..YOU broke my heart..

p.s i miss you..and i adore you..

Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 8:22 AM

Monday, October 12, 2009

"i'm stuck in here"
stuck where?.

i'm dying of home fever..getting sick of home..getting tired of looking at the same things over and over again..and i'm damned pissed about doing the same thing every single day..i hate holidays..ok people have kept telling me to go out..yes i do go out to slack and take some fresh air but it's not enough..i need to see people from school..i miss them all..they are like my so called ignition to social insanity..well school is starting in 6 days time..my misery at home will soon end..

oh if you guys don't know what home fever is,home fever is my term of cabin fever..cabin fever is a kind of a sickness when you are too bored doing the same thing and confined in the same area for a long period of time..so symptoms that shows you suffer from home fever is ;
1] angry eyes
2] tend to sleep a lot
3] forgetful
4] emotional
5] weak

out of these 5 symptoms,i am suffering from all 5..seriously,i am sleeping late because i sleep a lot in the afternoon and sometimes night[2]..my eyes looks like chinese guy that has eye infection[1]..i sometimes forget to charge my laptop,handphones,do laundry and vacuum the house[3]..i get frustrated very fast and get really sad very fast[4]..everytime i wake up i don't have the energy to get myself to the door[5]..all 5 symptoms match perfectly..in conclusion,just like my hypothesis,i am suffering from home fever..

and basically my life has become so mundane that i have to entertain myself by hurting myself..for example,i slept on the floor at the bottom of a book shelf..on the top shelf,there's 2 hammers..one big and one small..so that night i just swing my pillow and it knocks against the shelf..and guess what,the big hammer fell right on my forehead..after that i had a massive headache and i knock myself to sleep..but lucky it's just a few cm drop from the shelf to my head..and these past few weeks,i've been going crazy with my guitar..i had a lot of inspiration that just flooded my head..in a week,i wrote 4 songs..isn't that crazy..sometimes it only takes me like a month or so to like compose a proper song..oh yeah..the stupidest thing i tried to make my self sleep is to tire my brain out..by playing strategy or puzzle games online..in the end it never worked..so my advice to you is,don't tire your brain if you are trying to sleep..because you'll only end up with a massive headache..

i need to let loose and get whacky with some people..oh maybe the cure for me is to see some shooting stars..that's what i've been wanting to see for like 7 months?.i need to go to the beach someday..

somebody save me!!

Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 7:18 AM

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

"i want you to know"
i'm falling in love..

guys,guess what..i'm attached to natasha..she's beautiful..she's sexy..she's hot..she has an hour glass shape body..she's so awesome..want to see her photo..there she is..there she is..isn't she hot?.

Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 11:05 AM

Monday, September 28, 2009

"wished you all the best"
i've seen enough

tired!!jammed today..get to play bass..at last..but i had a price to pay for that..i forgot to bring my pick and my finger has a terrible blister..you can see like a bubble of water in my finger..terrible i tell you..but it is not that bad to play with..

i maybe stupid or dumb..but at least i got a brain and mind to think and ponder..i might be the worst guy you can ever meet..i just can't shake it off me..it's hunting me like a hunter hunting down dogs..ok,this paragraph has no meaning at all..i just typed it for the sake of typing and wasting time..be back in a few hours..

Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 7:23 AM

Saturday, September 26, 2009

"you can always talk to me about your problems"
i'm here for you

this song is written by me..inspired by plain white t's lonely september..i would like to dedicate this song to princess..if you read this,i'll sing you this song someday..=)

another lonely september

another day alone is taking it's toll on me
the smile and the face of whom i used to see
i miss the times that you and i ever had
the times maybe short but it's never filled with regret

this is not the end of us my friend
there's a lot more distance to go but you're giving up
i didn't mean to adore you but this feeling just came
i hope you feel the same as i am

trying to let you go was the hardest i've ever tried
to let the odds take its toll was like waiting for you to kill me
i know i may annoy you much but we had a great time
your voice reminds me of the whispers that we shared

this is not the end of us my friend
there's a lot more distance to go but you're giving up
i didn't mean to adore you but this feeling just came
i hope you feel the same as i am

i don't want to lose you in my dreams
i don't want to let you go just yet
i know that we can make it right
and we shall walk together in this path of love

the calls i made were silent to your voice
the texts that i sent were never replied
are you trying to let me go as i should have done
i love you too much that i can't bear to see you leave me alone

this is not the end for us my friend
there's a lot more distance to go but you're giving up
i didn't mean to adore you but this feeling just came
i hope you feel the same as i am

remember the movie and the time i sent u home?
remember the night we had under the stars?
the times i can't forget were the times i had with you
if you leave me now i shall die of sniffing glue

Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 9:25 AM

Friday, September 25, 2009

princess
princess
princess
princess
this part i'm bored..read below..^.^

Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 9:08 AM

"give me a name"
buck head

i'm damn sleepy..very tired..no idea why..my body is starting to ache..due to my very old bed..the other day,my bed collapse..how embarrassing is it?.

september is fast coming to an end..an end to the so called "time of the year"..which starts from july and ends by the end of september..actually this is my theory..time of the year is a period when people everywhere in the world suffers from relationship unstability..even if the unstability only last for an hour..this is when relationship takes it's toughest couples down..it is a period to test your endurance and patience..if you manage to get through this period without breaking up with your partner,you have passed the test my friend..every year will be the same..if you don't believe me,wait till next year..you see when couples start fighting over the smallest thing..

my life is such a bore..it has declined from awesome to extremely boring..no adventure,no fun,no excitement and no girlfriend..i want my life back..

oh yeah..i got into an argument with my parents..have you guys ever heard of the joint poly diploma SAF thingy?.if you have not,i shall explain..this SAF thing is like a scheme..if you join,every month you will recieve $600 to $1000 as your tuition fee..for guys, after your diploma,you will have to serve NS for two years..after that two years,you will have to sign on for another 5 years with the air force..your salary will be around $2,111..looks convincing right?.well here's the thing..my parent wants me to go for this talk tomorrow and apply for this..they say if i apply,i can get my allowance from SAF all that and after my NS i can work with the Air Force..upon resignation,i can join the aerospace industry..the industry now is searching for guys from Air Force..now you can see diploma graduates are having difficulty getting jobs..so according to my dad,if i joined e Air Force and apply for job later on,it will be easier for me to get it..i didn't buy that..so i told them why i didn't want to apply..here are my reasons:

firstly,the allowance all that seems very attractive..you can get the allowance..if you fail one semester,you will be kicked out..thats it for your Air Force dream..whatever..secondly,i have my own plan after poly..i'm going to graduate and work..if my dad is going to support me for my further studies,i will join full-time university..if my dad does no support my further study,i will have to take up part-time degree course at night and work in the day..my goal is to continue my studies until my master degree before i get married..if i join the Air Force,after i finish my bond,i will be 26 years old..and all i have is a diploma..well how am i suppose to further my studies to master degree before i get married at the age of 27?.and finally..for you who don't know about my political views,i hate singapore government since i was 12..i don't want to be part of any military..especially singapore's military..there are few malays there..and malays can't do much in camp..malays cant do this,cant do that..isn't that unfair?.i know i've dreamt of joining the army one day..but as i grew older,i reaslise how wretched this world is..i don't want to go on further..i made my point..

Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 7:45 AM