chapter 4!!!!!

2010-03-04T07:35:00.000-08:00

"this will always be our heartbeat"
i don't know what's the "this"..

it's march..just a month away to my 18th birthday!!free as a bird..i can do almost anything i want..the good stuff i mean..well it's holidays..i'm freaking bored at home..okay..i got nothing else to say..just gonna post some photos..

2010-02-12T01:46:00.000-08:00

"the dead will rise to haunt"
i mean my blog..

what up assholes..i know nobody reads my blog but i feel like posting something so it doesn't look dead!!well i love my life now..and also my gf..for those of you that doesn't know i have a gf,well know you should know..i don't want to talk about her on my blog..because i'm gonna talk about myself in my blog..

so i hope all of you guys are doing great..i miss some of you 4E2 fuckers..some,not all..i wonder where did that satay went?.nevermind..for those you who retake your 'O' 's i hope you guys did well..for those of you in poly,POLY LIFE ROCKS!!and ITE students,no comment..i'm not looking down on ITE students..i just got nothing to say..seriously..well i think this will be enough for today..hopefully i'll come back tomorrow..hopefully..take care..and Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends and buddies..^.^

2009-10-17T08:22:00.000-07:00

"i wish you would just pull the trigger"
if you may,

damn..so tired..my ass hurts as if i've been bitten by a shark..my arms aches as if bees were trying to eat it..my face is burning like frying nuggets..this is what i hate about the carpark survey job..but desperate times need desperate measures..oh yeah..desperate..the culmination of 2 months of dying at home ended with a big bang..i'm working for the last 3 days of holidays..need the money..too bad..dick..

did anybody tell you it's bad to make someone wait?.maybe someone should have told you that recently..so all this while it was just an act?.what the fucking hell!?you broke something of mine and you're just gonna walk off pretending nothing happened?.i don't want to make wild accusations but the way i see it,you're just toying around with me..sometimes you are happy and hyped when talking to me,a minute or two later,your energy is diverted to someone else..it's like what the heck..i know i'm a dick..but i've told you my reasons..i'm sorry for what i have ever done..somehow i just know you're lying to me about being so understanding when you don't give a fuck about it..you can play around with me but one day somebody will play yours..and you'll know how it feels..three sentences you might be familiar with princess..

YOU cheat my feelings..YOU gave me false hope..YOU broke my heart..

p.s i miss you..and i adore you..

2009-10-12T07:18:00.000-07:00

"i'm stuck in here"
stuck where?.

i'm dying of home fever..getting sick of home..getting tired of looking at the same things over and over again..and i'm damned pissed about doing the same thing every single day..i hate holidays..ok people have kept telling me to go out..yes i do go out to slack and take some fresh air but it's not enough..i need to see people from school..i miss them all..they are like my so called ignition to social insanity..well school is starting in 6 days time..my misery at home will soon end..

oh if you guys don't know what home fever is,home fever is my term of cabin fever..cabin fever is a kind of a sickness when you are too bored doing the same thing and confined in the same area for a long period of time..so symptoms that shows you suffer from home fever is ;
1] angry eyes
2] tend to sleep a lot
3] forgetful
4] emotional
5] weak

out of these 5 symptoms,i am suffering from all 5..seriously,i am sleeping late because i sleep a lot in the afternoon and sometimes night[2]..my eyes looks like chinese guy that has eye infection[1]..i sometimes forget to charge my laptop,handphones,do laundry and vacuum the house[3]..i get frustrated very fast and get really sad very fast[4]..everytime i wake up i don't have the energy to get myself to the door[5]..all 5 symptoms match perfectly..in conclusion,just like my hypothesis,i am suffering from home fever..

and basically my life has become so mundane that i have to entertain myself by hurting myself..for example,i slept on the floor at the bottom of a book shelf..on the top shelf,there's 2 hammers..one big and one small..so that night i just swing my pillow and it knocks against the shelf..and guess what,the big hammer fell right on my forehead..after that i had a massive headache and i knock myself to sleep..but lucky it's just a few cm drop from the shelf to my head..and these past few weeks,i've been going crazy with my guitar..i had a lot of inspiration that just flooded my head..in a week,i wrote 4 songs..isn't that crazy..sometimes it only takes me like a month or so to like compose a proper song..oh yeah..the stupidest thing i tried to make my self sleep is to tire my brain out..by playing strategy or puzzle games online..in the end it never worked..so my advice to you is,don't tire your brain if you are trying to sleep..because you'll only end up with a massive headache..

i need to let loose and get whacky with some people..oh maybe the cure for me is to see some shooting stars..that's what i've been wanting to see for like 7 months?.i need to go to the beach someday..

somebody save me!!

2009-09-30T11:05:00.000-07:00

"i want you to know"
i'm falling in love..

guys,guess what..i'm attached to natasha..she's beautiful..she's sexy..she's hot..she has an hour glass shape body..she's so awesome..want to see her photo..there she is..there she is..isn't she hot?.

2009-09-28T07:23:00.000-07:00

"wished you all the best"
i've seen enough

tired!!jammed today..get to play bass..at last..but i had a price to pay for that..i forgot to bring my pick and my finger has a terrible blister..you can see like a bubble of water in my finger..terrible i tell you..but it is not that bad to play with..

i maybe stupid or dumb..but at least i got a brain and mind to think and ponder..i might be the worst guy you can ever meet..i just can't shake it off me..it's hunting me like a hunter hunting down dogs..ok,this paragraph has no meaning at all..i just typed it for the sake of typing and wasting time..be back in a few hours..

2009-09-26T09:25:00.000-07:00

"you can always talk to me about your problems"
i'm here for you

this song is written by me..inspired by plain white t's lonely september..i would like to dedicate this song to princess..if you read this,i'll sing you this song someday..=)

another lonely september

another day alone is taking it's toll on me
the smile and the face of whom i used to see
i miss the times that you and i ever had
the times maybe short but it's never filled with regret

this is not the end of us my friend
there's a lot more distance to go but you're giving up
i didn't mean to adore you but this feeling just came
i hope you feel the same as i am

trying to let you go was the hardest i've ever tried
to let the odds take its toll was like waiting for you to kill me
i know i may annoy you much but we had a great time
your voice reminds me of the whispers that we shared

this is not the end of us my friend
there's a lot more distance to go but you're giving up
i didn't mean to adore you but this feeling just came
i hope you feel the same as i am

i don't want to lose you in my dreams
i don't want to let you go just yet
i know that we can make it right
and we shall walk together in this path of love

the calls i made were silent to your voice
the texts that i sent were never replied
are you trying to let me go as i should have done
i love you too much that i can't bear to see you leave me alone

this is not the end for us my friend
there's a lot more distance to go but you're giving up
i didn't mean to adore you but this feeling just came
i hope you feel the same as i am

remember the movie and the time i sent u home?
remember the night we had under the stars?
the times i can't forget were the times i had with you
if you leave me now i shall die of sniffing glue

2009-09-25T09:08:00.000-07:00

princess
princess
princess
princess
this part i'm bored..read below..^.^

2009-09-25T07:45:00.000-07:00

"give me a name"
buck head

i'm damn sleepy..very tired..no idea why..my body is starting to ache..due to my very old bed..the other day,my bed collapse..how embarrassing is it?.

september is fast coming to an end..an end to the so called "time of the year"..which starts from july and ends by the end of september..actually this is my theory..time of the year is a period when people everywhere in the world suffers from relationship unstability..even if the unstability only last for an hour..this is when relationship takes it's toughest couples down..it is a period to test your endurance and patience..if you manage to get through this period without breaking up with your partner,you have passed the test my friend..every year will be the same..if you don't believe me,wait till next year..you see when couples start fighting over the smallest thing..

my life is such a bore..it has declined from awesome to extremely boring..no adventure,no fun,no excitement and no girlfriend..i want my life back..

oh yeah..i got into an argument with my parents..have you guys ever heard of the joint poly diploma SAF thingy?.if you have not,i shall explain..this SAF thing is like a scheme..if you join,every month you will recieve $600 to $1000 as your tuition fee..for guys, after your diploma,you will have to serve NS for two years..after that two years,you will have to sign on for another 5 years with the air force..your salary will be around $2,111..looks convincing right?.well here's the thing..my parent wants me to go for this talk tomorrow and apply for this..they say if i apply,i can get my allowance from SAF all that and after my NS i can work with the Air Force..upon resignation,i can join the aerospace industry..the industry now is searching for guys from Air Force..now you can see diploma graduates are having difficulty getting jobs..so according to my dad,if i joined e Air Force and apply for job later on,it will be easier for me to get it..i didn't buy that..so i told them why i didn't want to apply..here are my reasons:

firstly,the allowance all that seems very attractive..you can get the allowance..if you fail one semester,you will be kicked out..thats it for your Air Force dream..whatever..secondly,i have my own plan after poly..i'm going to graduate and work..if my dad is going to support me for my further studies,i will join full-time university..if my dad does no support my further study,i will have to take up part-time degree course at night and work in the day..my goal is to continue my studies until my master degree before i get married..if i join the Air Force,after i finish my bond,i will be 26 years old..and all i have is a diploma..well how am i suppose to further my studies to master degree before i get married at the age of 27?.and finally..for you who don't know about my political views,i hate singapore government since i was 12..i don't want to be part of any military..especially singapore's military..there are few malays there..and malays can't do much in camp..malays cant do this,cant do that..isn't that unfair?.i know i've dreamt of joining the army one day..but as i grew older,i reaslise how wretched this world is..i don't want to go on further..i made my point..

2009-09-24T11:42:00.000-07:00

"another lonely september"
yeah..lonely indeed..

its like going to 3 am in 13 minutes here..i'm very cold..my jackets are all in the laundry..my blanket,erm,guess what?.my dad threw it away..wtf!!its been with me for like 11 years..its the stars and my moon..actually it has stars and moons pattern on it..its so cute..but i've lost another love of my life..=(

awalawalawalawalawalawala bangbangbangbangbang shot dead with my hand gun..woohoo

random attack!!

i need a whole army of boredom!!

commander random:i need shome very powerful gun to take down that boredom wall.we must conquer them me boys.all hands on deck me boys.

captain boredom:they attacked us.now we shall bring them down my man.take a few good words from them as we slice them into pieces and rip them into letters.

the epic battle between the two moods in my head is starting to heat up..bombs,missiles and gunshots flying everywhere..this is getting out of hand..

soon the angry sleepy head threw a nuclear bomb on the war zone..and everything now is calm..now i can get some rest..woohoo

walawalawalawalawalawalawalawalawala bangbangbangbangbang boomboomboomboomboom

now i can rest..rest in peace..eh no..rest well..ehehehe..nights..

2009-09-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

"kissing goodnight"
goodnight

i have no idea what to type here..oh i know..the person who asked me to update my blog,will have her name on my post..

ELLE
ELLE
ELLE
ELLE

well now you have something to read about.. =D

2009-09-20T11:49:00.000-07:00

"just concern"

sorry to annoy you

first day of raya..the day of forgiveness,tears,happiness and laughter..this is how it's suppose to be every year..and i hope it stays that way..wise words from mum..only her words can put me to tears..after years of care and love,i maybe the most disobedient,rebellious,disrespectful and insolent child she can have in the whole family..but i still will be the son that used to be with her everywhere she go last time in her wheelchair..i maybe young and weak..but i didn't care what other said about me being mummy's boy..well i am mummy's boy because i'm the only son..the years past and i've grown up..each year, the more worse i get towards mum..i heard from abah she cried if i was to just disobey a simple task they want me to do..get home on time..i pity her..with her conditions and from her past..i sympathise her..what had she done to deserve this?.it's not her fault..everything she does is good..nothing bad..but why her?.5 years past from the day that the doctor told her..still going strong..my mum is my idol,my hero and my soul..i promised to take care of her even if i'm in misfortune..that's because i love my mum..

went to my mum's twin's house which is my auntie..my granddad was there..well reached there around 1..stayed through till 8..in between dad and i was watching tv on the sofa when we fell asleep when the house is full..embarrassing but at least i get to sleep..collection this year has dropped..but i don't care..all i care is to see the people i call family to be with me on that day..and i love my family..more than i can love another person..

2009-09-17T02:58:00.001-07:00

"kept waiting under the night sky"
that's what i do..wait for you..

i don't know what i'm doing here..i just feel like typing since there's nobody to chat with me on msn..i can say that i'm very bored..internet has been irritating me for hours..but lucky i have my small,compact and cute little vodafone modem to supply me internet connection..i hate singtel's internet..it's slow,useless,irritating and very difficult to understand..only cocks understand how it works..

anyway,went out yesterday..first part of the day, went to pasir ris to teach mai ckt..because she had to take supplementary paper today..in the library, it was fucking cold..seriously cold..we were shivering..and it wasn't even raining yet..second part of the day, went to marina square to break fast with princess..ate long john silver with 4 animals sitting beside us..there's pig,donkey,cockroach and coyote..they look like those animal respectively..oh, it was also fucking cold in marina square..i was shivering after i came out of the toilet..the bench was shaking when i was sitting on it because i was shivering like hell..third part of the day was, going to esplanade roof top to enjoy the lighted buildings against the night sky..and after off home..

today, i am bored..bored like hell..fuck the days that bring misery to me..

2009-09-15T11:23:00.000-07:00

"i love you"
what's the meaning behind it..

heyhey..it's 2.30am now..i'm happy today..got to see mai and yan..woohoo..miss them..oh shit..ah wei..i miss him..hahaha..and edison..i can't wait to see them when school reopens..=D

anyway,i just finish eating cheese..a block of cheese..disgusting yellow cheese..i have to eat it firstly because i was hungry and there's no food at all..fuck..and it wasn't satisfying at all..fuck it..anyway,nathalie just inspired me to right a new song..i want to post it up today..because it's like one of the meaningful lyrics i've ever written..it's called guidance..

guidance by angel

don't leave me alone..

take my hand and throw me away
i've depended on someone like you
the trust the hate that we had
we still can't be apart
i'm sorry for your loss
leaving home is not an option
take me back to where i belong
tell me something i need to know

[chorus]
you're my hand my shoulder and everything i can ask for
the reasons i had could just blast you off your feet
rip my body to peices yet i'll still be close to you
you've broken my heart as you left me
you're the man i look up to

the tears that i shed as i tried to sleep
the nonsense that everyone gave me
stared in the night sky just to make a wish
wish upon a shooting star just take me back
i need a life i need your support
lies after lies i feel so insecured
take me back to where i was before
leave me there i need some time alone

[chorus]
you're my hand my shoulder and everything i can ask for
the reasons i had could just blast you off your feet
rip my body to peices yet i'll still be close to you
you've broken my heart as you left me
you're the man i look up to

[post chorus]
now you're back again with me
i want to feel some love from someone like you
you only come once in my life
please come back i need you to guide me

father,where are you?
i need you
you're the one i had left
please tell me what i can do
to live my life just like everybody else

don't you leave me alone

[chorus]
you're my hand my shoulder and everything i can ask for
the reasons i had could just blast you off your feet
rip my body to peices yet i'll still be close to you
you've broken my heart as you left me
you're the man i look up to

2009-09-14T10:23:00.000-07:00

"simple yet fussy"

i guess?.

headaches!!fuck you headaches..my arms hurts like hell..terrible feeling when i lift my arms..fuck you!!my eyes are turning red..fuck you!!

i'm very tired..absolutely exhausted..sleeping late at night..about 2 or 3 plus..waking up at about 11 or 12..my eyes is turning red everyday..now it's like i'm suffering from hideous eye infection..or maybe i look like an addict..drug addict would be appropriate..damn it..anyway i've been very bored staying up late..so i've written about 3 lyrics in a week..2 of the lyrics was inspired when i was in the toilet..sadly i categorise both the song as toilet songs..sadly..the first song tittle is,tinted days..because she wanted to me to write it..and the other 2 songs is tittled, marry me (let me go) and The call..actually The call was Sri's idea..she asked me to write a song called The call..after i showed her the lyrics of Marry me..and she only told me 24 hours ago..tadaaa, i've written The call..i guess she's going to sing it..thats what she wanted..i think..

sadly i've got no mood to type anything..my eyes are killing me..because it's RED!!

2009-09-06T10:55:00.000-07:00

"to be gay or not to be"

thats what shakespear really meant..

sleepy..yawning..tired..craving..i need a smoke..

just two words..idon'tknowwhattotypebecausei'mplainbored iguessishallnotcontinuemydocumenteryfromyesterday..

2009-09-05T09:31:00.000-07:00

"one small step for mankind,one giant fart for cows"

neil armstrong never thought of that..

well here i am..at last..updating this blog..it's not dead..just unavailable..thats all..anyway,it's holidays!! and i'm bored shitless..sleep at 4 everyday and wake up at 5 for predawn meal..as you can see its fasting month..so i have to suffer like this..past few days,my eyes were red..both eyes..not enough sleep..suffering from undersleep..but who cares..as long i can be wake,i'm happy..

anyway,i feel like talking about cows and moon today..there's a saying,"cows jump over the moon"..take this phrase..how can cow jump over the moon?.it's big and heavier than man..how can it even jump in the first place?.well through technology and logic, i have figured out how the cows does it..first thing you need to propel yourself into space is, power..

power?.cows are indeed powerful and strong animals..but how can they use or benefit these power to propel themselves up to space?.they use a power we never discovered..its the fart gas..its much more powerful than a hydrogen rocket which powers the space shuttle..this fart gives such enormous thrust that a stationery cow can reach not to 60miles/per hour in 4.5 seconds..not to 100 miles takes a staggering 6 second..top speed of 1200mph..faster than an airliner..with amazing 10000bhp,it is enough to rocket the cow off earth's gravity..the next thing is,how does the cow breathe in space?.

we get milk from cow breast..it comes from the sac..but for lunar mission, the sac is very vital..the sac will contain oxygen which is filled while the cow is preparing to take off the day before..as these sac are full of oxygen,the cow is ready..before take off,the cows stuff those nipple into their nose..as there are roughly around six nipples,2 is for oxygen,2 for carbon dioxide and the last 2 is for milk..very innovative indeed..a photo will be added after this paragraph..so when the cows takes off,the oxygen level will decrease as it goes higher..so after 50,000 feet,the cow will put in its oxygen nipples..

see the similiarity?.the astronauts get the idea from the cows..

well that's the whole theory..but you wanna know what's the name of the first cow that landed on the moon?.its name was sir neil legstrong..his quote that change the world was,"one small step for man,one giant fart for cows"..see you next time..

2009-08-15T10:11:00.000-07:00

"hardship is the brother of cargoship"

they are still ships..

it's good to be back..haha..sorry i have not updated in a while..i was busy with school..poly life..what do you expect..haha..

anyway,past few weeks have been quite ok..yan was sick for two weeks..so its only jiv,me and mai..haha..everytime skip lecture,we felt something was missing..or maybe someone was missing..haha..but still the fun is there..^.^

other than that,nothing else happened..haha.. well let's hope i post again tomorrow..haha..now i'm in the mood to write a song..

2009-07-20T06:54:00.000-07:00

"i'm confused"

2009-06-23T04:07:00.000-07:00

"what makes a dude fart?.EGGS!!"

*yawn!!

school has finally started after 2 and a half week of fucking boring holidays..miss my classmates n friends..everybody came into class and saying,"hey,what's up?.how are you doing man?."..shaking hands and hugging each other..hahaha..well it's nice to be back in campus..=)

saying of the day,"what makes you a man,will always make you an ape"

2009-06-16T06:34:00.000-07:00

"someday will be our day"
let the day come..

started work today at singapore Expo..well,it's damn tiring..we stand for 8 plus hours..furthermore,my shoe is fucking small!!and it's STEEL TOE!!it has no freaking room for my toe to wriggle..now it's fucking killing me..damn it..anyways,i made a few friends..they are Ah Wei's friends..two girls and a dude..i forgot the dude's name..because he's quite shy guy..the two ladies are Valarie and Yuan Xin..cute girls of course..haha..ok..

today's a great experience for me..came across many diffrent people..from the obnoxious businessman to the funny wtf businessman..and also i came across people from almost across the globe like Americans,Italians,Africans,France and other countries..communicating with those non-english speakers was hell i tell you..some Africans dude when like this,"memememememememe.mememimimemeju."..i was like,"sir ,can i have your name card please?."..so he ignored me and went ahead inside..so his collegues,i presume,was still blur..and i asked them for the same thing..this time this another dude went,"ememememe.mimikikekoyu.mamamememmimimmmmmmmmmm?."..so all i can do is,?????????????????????????????????????????..yeah and they just went in..hahaha..freaking idiotic..hahaha..well it was fun though..all my stresses were gone till pravin msged me,"nothing"..and that reminded me of everything..but who cares..i'm working now..don't need to think of other stuff..

ok..i'm seriously have no mood to blog..i just have to post this post because of the funny things that happened during work..maybe tomorrow i will go in detail..haha..before i go,i song for someone..

rise against-blood to bleed

2009-06-13T09:06:00.000-07:00

"today's saturday..tomorrow's a HOLIDAY!!"
like obviously..haha

ok..it's been decades since i last blog..i guess..well who cares..look on the bright side..it's morning..oh..i just thought of this..which dumb idiot came out with this phrase,"well,look on the bright side.."..that's dumb..you can only use this phrase when you're in the night time..because as you know,the Earth is circular..therefore,if one side is dark,the other is bright..in other words,one side is night and the other side is morning..dumb ass who thinks they're smart..haha..fool..

ah yes..i have a new dilemma about eyes..i'm trying not to offend anybody..but i just get confused when i see a person with either lazy or crossed eye..i just don't get where they are trying to look!! 'should i be looking at that eye or that eye?.' that's what i'll ask myself when i see those kind of people..but some people just don't admit that the have that "disease"..if they wave at you from a distance,you'll think that they are waving to someone behind,left or right of you..and if that happens to me,i'll just walk pass them..for those personel that don't admit the "disease",i have one thing to say to them,"YOU FUCKING HAVE A LAZY/CROSSED EYE YOU FOOL!!!!"..and seriously i will say that..if i don't know that person of course..i haven't live long in this world..i'm only 17 this year..

i don't want to talk about my week..that's because i don't remember anything that happened..haha..

2009-06-06T00:06:00.000-07:00

"holding a gun ready to shoot"
revenge is sweet

what's up moonnies..haha..

it's holiday and i have no freaking plans..the only plan i had for holidyas is just go to pasir ris library and slack there with my classmates..this is the first time i don't want a holiday..haha..i want to sleep!!

2009-06-03T23:28:00.000-07:00

"CAUTION: height limit =)"
i'm too tall!!

HOLIDAYS HAS FINALLY ARRIVED!!at last..going to miss school for two weeks..whatever it is,it's what i'm going to do during my holidays..

well here's the list of things i want to do during the holidays:
1] paint my room
2]go shopping!!
3]get a new set of guitar strings for both guitars
4]readjust my room
5]go out
6]class BBQ
7]driving
8]going crazy
and the list goes on..yes..i'm going to do everything in two weeks..and nothing's impossible..even the word impossible has "possible" in it..so it's possible..whatever..

let's don't talk about my three term tests..because it sucked like fuck..

recently i was caught catching butterflies..haha

2009-06-01T07:19:00.000-07:00

"i wish the sky was blue"

the sky is like freaking red nowadays!!

sing a song,nothing is better..help me out,the sun's getting brighter..

that's just a random phrase..haha..well school's not bad..the thing that's bothering me,it's the TERM TEST!!holy fucking piece of shit..maths was horrible,terrible,horrific and terrific..yeah..section A was damn easy..when i flipped to section B,my face was priceless..i had the shock of my poly life..it ws fucking difficult..i swear to god..i just hope that i don't fail..haha..anyway i just met raihanna..hehe..

2009-05-27T08:12:00.000-07:00

"beautiful than you were before"

=D

the freaking thing is like a good luck charm and a restrictor..well thank you..=)

2009-05-23T22:16:00.000-07:00

"whack my head,i'll whack yours too."
don't try to be funny my man..this is serious..haha

Welcome to my new blog skin..it's a whole new thing..and don't say i'm gay because i'm partially not..haha..

what happened to Ryan the idiot?.he was too dumb to kill the fire..

quizes suck like how those pornstars do blowjob..really man..i passed my maths quiz 18/20..but my circuit analysis and digital fundemental,i'm going to blow it..like "boom" *explosion*..yeah..that's right..i'm such a dick..well there's always something better happening..i got to know Jowie..pravin knows..haha..=P

what are you going to do?.burn my blog?.haha..well that's fucking random..haha..

somebody asked,"do you like being in TP?"
well one word said it all,"YEAH!!"..haha..

2009-05-19T01:52:00.000-07:00

"i wish for 1 thing..pigs can fly.."
*Pork Airline,this is airpork,you are clear to land in mexico.*

i'm back forks..the spoons are waiting..

oh,why did the kid push his bicycle?.
-because he ran out of gas..
why was the jalepeno on a stick is so confident girls will go crazy over him?.
-he has a stick..
why did the elephant became dirty after cross the road?.
-its a dirt road..

haha..eat my shit fucker..haha..actually that's random..just bored..skip school..it's a legal act because i have an MC..=P bleh~ haha..i have to say that today suck..stayed at home almost the whole day..what a freaking lame day..totally sucks..i actually forced myself to talk to the wall..amazingly,it replied!!well that's because i'm having headaches..haha..

doc:good afternoon.so what is wrong with you today boy?
me:good afternoon doc.i've been having flu for the past few days.
doc:oh i see.anything else?sore throat?
me:yeah.
doc:coughing?
me:slight.
doc:fever?
me:just cooled down this morning.
doc:you slept in ice did you?
me:?????????????
doc:just kidding.come let me examine you.
*check here.check there.check everywhere.*
me:finally.
doc:yeah.you're are sick alright.
me:what do you suggest?
doc:i'll give you this medications first to try.
me:ok.how about my headaches?
doc:you have headaches too?come let me check your blood pressure.
*put on cuff and puff and puff*
doc:hmmm.quite natural.
me:??
doc:i mean it's ok.
me:oh.
doc:i'm going to give you this medicine.try first if you can.
me:..........ok.
doc:i guess that's all.
me:thank you doc.
doc:you're welcome.

my trip to see the doctor..haha..am so fucking bored..

oh oh..last night i dreamt about her..shit man..i was on the floor rolling to the interchange!!hahaha!!

2009-05-15T23:21:00.000-07:00

freaking funny video..haha..a must watch..

the dead terrorist achmed

2009-05-15T23:03:00.000-07:00

"what do you call a pig,a chicken and a man on a plane?."

influenza H1N1 flying virus..haha

anyway school is starting to become more and more fun..i don't know why..haha..that day during maths lecture,only 5 people in my class attended..the rest,including me,we all went to macdonalds and slack for two awesome hours..haha..i love my class man..it's fucking crazy..the other day we skipped class and me and 4 others went to the library..since we were too free,we played cards..but the fucking big sign in the library entrance said,"NO CARDS OR BOARD GAMES ALLOWED"..we ignored that..after 5 rounds,the library ranger came and confiscated our cards and took down our names..haha..we were like blur ass..after that we went off..because we don't want to be black listed again..haha..

in my course,my class is the most bonded..everywhere you turn,you can see the whole of us walking or just sitting and chatting..we even planned to have a barbaque next saturday..because our CP gave us $100..haha..

class M902 from mechatronics will be the known class in engineering school because we had a few tutors that can't handle us and a new one came in..but it's not making any difference..haha..

and today i've finally joined the Blow Club..haha..well try to figure that out..it's not blowjob motherfucker..it's something else..haha..well i'm freaking tired..just took cough mixture..i want to sleep..very daze right now..haha.. _!_

2009-05-06T07:34:00.000-07:00

"let's hope for one thing,i'll never be swiner than i am"
haha..just laugh if you still don't get it..haha

amazing week for me..monday was just a great start..tuesday was just as great..and today,was absolutely wonderful..i just felt that this week is just the beginning of something great..haha..

i know my blog is not read by anybody so i'm basically going to rant to myself..haha..but after that i'm going to change my blog skin and my way of blogging..no longer moody,emo and angry post..all my post will be happy,cheerful and ass kicking..haha..i will do that soon..if i have the free time..haha..

anyway,great news..i was invited by a band to join them..haha..wonderful..they're from my class and we're going to play something heavy and crazy..i have no idea what's the band name going to be..but roles are pending..haha..here's the list of my new band:
Suffiyan,
Marcus,
Haridz,
A guy and
maybe Jonathan..
yeah..five awesome youngster trying to promote music..that's going to keep me busy in poly..haha..

well i'm tired..going to do some research later at night..projects,i love them..NOT!!haha..

2009-05-04T06:30:00.000-07:00

"hi,my name's haridz.what's your's?"
that's how i ask for a girls' number..haha

third week of school..fun and more fun..well since today is monday,it's not a good start..because i'm too active today..haha..i was a little lethargic during engine drawing..but than Dr Ravi somehow injected fuel into me during lecture..haha..and during CKT,i didn't listen at all to the lecturer..instead my classmates and i was busy doing pranks on others in front..haha..i hate mondays..haha..

well how's school monnies?.should be fun as mine i suppose..haha..anyway,the swine flu pandemic is very irritating..we had to queue up to get our temperature taken just to GET IN THE LIBRARY!!it's a LIBRARY for goodness sake..-.- haha..isn't it suppose to be accesible?.haha..well who cares..right?.maybe me of course..fuck it..haha

and finally i had my laptop configured on school today..quite fast actually..haha..i'm going to continue my research..i'll blog tomorrow i guess..haha..

2009-04-29T09:08:00.000-07:00

"first this S,then that S..so i am ASS.."
both unavailable..haiz

school was damn fucking awesome man..totally rocks..my new friends are my whole class..that time we all went to eat together at Design school's canteen..fucking crowded especially during lunch break..at least the food was fine..i think..haha..lectures is like the best man..two reasons;
1)i get to stare at a girl for the whole lecture =D
2)i usually sleep(unless that annoying amanda messages me)

another thing is that,every fucking lesson we all have to move place..sometimes we ahve our lab session at block 11 then the next lesson would be at block 22 which is like the other end of the school..but the good thing is,we get to be realeased 15 mins before time..haha..and so far i finish school around 15 to 30 mins before time..haha..my lecturers and tutors are so kind..=D

talking about environment,everytime i wait for pravin outside his school,i would see fucking hot girls walk past me..and all i neeeded to do was just act stupid so i can get their attention..and it worked!!haha..so fun man..serious fucking shit is that there's too many girls in design school for me to choose from..haha..but still i can take my time..haha..

i love poly man..a new phase,a new chapter and a new beginning..i'll just have to fucking move on and leave the past behind..then start embracing what poly has been giving..haha..

happy studying monnies(my new way of saying people)..lakedaka..which means ciao!!

2009-04-17T00:49:00.000-07:00

fuck you..fuck fuck fuck and fuck..this is killing me man..fuck you..fuck everything..what an asshole..how fucked up is it to know all this things is just a joke?.fuck you fucking bitch..take care of your mother before she gets banged by the MILFers..final word,FUCK YOU

2009-04-13T05:36:00.000-07:00

this is the seize the day cover..that one below is the wrong one..

avenged sevenfold-seize the day

2009-04-12T08:16:00.000-07:00

"lealealealealealealea"

how are you doing babe?.

beast and the harlot-shame for fame

we jammed this..and its great..i guess..some mistakes here and there..(fyi:there's no bass,no vocals and my guitar totally drowned by pravin's guitar)

sieze the day-shame for fame

haha..screwed up..but i love my solo..it's sounded damn cool..maybe next time,i shall pump up my amp..haha..

well i love this song..its by thrid eye blind..but i love it when jim carrey sings it..haha..so this is jumper by third eye blind..

2009-04-05T23:42:00.000-07:00

like many who have tried,i tried the quiz also..

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

somehow all of the things are not true..and maybe some might be true..but still majority are just rubbish..i don't know why people kept saying that this quiz is accurate..-.- it's nowhere near too..the different coloured words are either true or just rubbish..haha..

2009-04-05T23:10:00.000-07:00

"those great times are often worst times for you"

all you could ever think about was him..

plain white t's-write you a song

i always have been writing songs..but this is specially for you..not this video..a song i'm working on now..it's called 'sat back for the fireworks'..

oh ya..if you are reading my blog,i guess this song is for you..like a asked you before,this friday night is a wonderful night..

2009-04-02T06:57:00.000-07:00

"i never knew how i felt about you"
i don't know..

we the kings-skyway avenue

great song..the video has got to do with me a little..just a little..maybe soon..but nowhere hear yet..

to tell the truth,she doesn't know it yet..maybe she does..but i can't assume..should i tell?.

anyway,new blogskin..you like it or not,it's none of my business..don't like it,get the hell out of here..

2009-03-30T07:32:00.000-07:00

"sleep and never open your eyes"

i wish i would have never met you..

plain white t's-hey there delilah

yeah..it's what you do to me..

i'm gone..

i thought you really meant what you said..this time i saw a shooting star and i wished to forget you..please let it come true..

2009-03-23T21:41:00.000-07:00

"you left and scathed my heart"

you're not coming back i guess..

plain white t's-1234

this song is for you..even though you don't know i even have a blog,i'll just keep dedicating songs until i come back to say 'hi'..

so hungry..yet no appetite to eat..not even a slice of bread..i wish you would just realise that somebody has disappeared from your life..

2009-03-23T07:05:00.000-07:00

"i stood there staring at the sky as you sail pass me"

haiz..nothing but heartache

we the king-secret valentine

i learn this song because i wanted to play it for you..some day,some place and some time,we're bound to meet..i think when i'll see you again,all i can think to say to you is,'hi'..and walk off..

*..my heart is like the titanic broken into two and sinking deep into my sorrow..*

2009-03-18T19:27:00.000-07:00

"i hope it's true"

hmmmm..you're not making it up right?.

went shopping yesterday..didn't buy anything much..just bought a pair of jeans,bermudas,belt,two beanies and a jacket..yeah..that's all..but had fun yesterday..long time since i've been a public nuisance..haha..well later at night,i changed my mood..-.-

anyway i got nothing to do..so i just shot a photo of myself..=)

2009-03-17T20:15:00.000-07:00

"see the light that brings out the fear and misery"
terror..

miranda cosgrove-about you know

haha..isn't she cute?.haha..

the amazing adventure of angel

isn't my movie great?.haha..that's the video i made during the boring carpark survey job..

2009-03-12T05:31:00.001-07:00

"my eyes were always looking after you"

hmmmmmmmmm

a video of me playing demons and seize the day solo...got the idea from pravin..haha..bad sound quality..handphone microphone sucks..

a little non perfect..haha..

wow..i just played around with a few frets and i got a little nicer than what i learnt..not very good because my middle frequency were a little too high..maybe my handphone microphone is not so good..well i tried my best..haha..enjoy..

2009-03-10T23:48:00.000-07:00

"let me hold you tight before you slip away"

i enjoyed yesterday

2009-03-07T22:19:00.000-08:00

"let the rain pour on us before we say goodbye"

i tried but you slipped away..

boys like girls-learning to fall

this song is for you..

3 days and only 9 hours of sleeping hours..and all three days i was working..came back home late and freaking tired..

well since you like korean,i just pick any soundtrack from random dramas..and i came up with this..enjoy..=)

ignore the video if you want..but its all for you..

2009-03-04T20:08:00.000-08:00

"ravaging through the streets with a knife in hand"

nothing gets in my way..

all time low-vegas

my favourite song of their album..it's about friends that you are with..and how much they do things for you..they'll never leave you..i'm actually dedicating this to someone..but it's up to that person to listen..=)

i just thought of this lines to go in to the song 'fast edge'..

now you're stuck in between
i can't make the choice for you
it's only left or right
you have to go either way
both are better in their own ways
look at me while i tear this place apart

we teenagers are confused..we listen most of the times to our friends..any wrong move,we shall suffer great consequences..hmmmmmm..maybe i would put this as the breakdown of the song..yeah..=)

2009-03-03T20:37:00.000-08:00

"light your way with only your heart"

follow your heart..

all time low-let it roll

one of my favourite songs..

fast edge

(regret is why you left)
yeah..
let me find a place where there's drinks and drugs
follow my heart to the place i call 'home'
the city is burning because of my sins
running away but it still stays with you
wo oh
look at this city of evil
the horrific sight,horrendous accidents
you're the only one that lived

chorus:
i left my heartbeat by your side
not knowing what's wrong and right
you are dead while i'm here regretting
the war's not over
i have you to leave

the song is called fast edge..i can't come up with a better title..haha..well i wrote down this song because i was suffering from severe insomia 2 weeks ago..since i can't sleep,i laid down this lyrics..not completed yet..but soon..basically this song is about how naive we teenagers can be..choosing the wrong from the right and claiming what's wrong is right..getting influenced with each other's decision and executing without further pondering..everybody make some mistakes..it takes a day to forgive and a lifetime to forget..

2009-03-03T07:44:00.000-08:00

"blinded by sight,awakened by your heartbeat"

.....

plain white tees-lonely september

classic..i always listen to this song when i got "rejected"..

2009-03-02T06:58:00.000-08:00

"i'm writing a song for us"

well i am currently writing a few pieces..

silverstein-apologize(band cover)

well i love it..it's about me..

ok..last saturday,there was like 7 people in one kitchen..it was damn cramp and totally alive..haha..anyway i wanted to post some stupid photos..but my phone can't synchronise with the computer..haha..so i decided not to post it at all..haha..

i know,you know,the fights are getting old..

2009-02-24T21:59:00.000-08:00

"i never knew how you felt"

you seem doubtful about something..

hey monday-how you love me now

i like the vocalist..she's super talented..her voice from remembering sunday just melts my inner system..=D

i did my work..now i just have to wait..wait longer..i don't understand how you feel..now i'm hanging by the edge..you can pull me back or just let me fall..i guess you're still uncertain..

2009-02-23T20:12:00.000-08:00

"i guess this time i'm closer to you"

well,you're at simei at i'm at tesmasek..=)

no videos..

hmmm..today i've decided to do post something stupid..but i don't know what..ok,why not i post about some wierd facts about me..i'll just post the top 10 wierd thing..*drum roll*
4)i sometimes sleep on my square table which is about 1 metre in length and width..
9)i usually stay in the shower for 45 mins under running water..
2)i love to nap 'under' my bed..(fyi:the gap under my bed is only about 30 cm)
10)i enjoy playing inside those big boxes for tvs and refrigerators..
7)i would like to walk in the rain rather than the underpasses..
5) i eat my burgers in this order;top bun,bottom bun and finally the patty..
1)do kung fu moves in public..
8)play my guitar in the dead of the night..
6)i would wrap myself in my blanket eventhough it's damn hot before sleeping..(fyi:i don't have operational air-con)..
3)i iron my shirts or pants on the walls..

well basically that's all..for the top 10 i guess..haha..to me,wierdness is the best policy..if you're not wierd,you wouldn't find anything interesting..just spice things a little you'll be as happy as a gorilla after masterbation..=)
i can't wait till school starts..=D looking forward to find wierdos like me..if there's any..haha..and if i'm free after class,i'll head to Simei ITE to see someone..=) it's just nearby..hehe..

2009-02-19T00:28:00.000-08:00

"we can't change our fate.but we have choices."

you will always have to turn left or right..

no videos..

2009-02-18T06:48:00.001-08:00

"things are not as they seems"

just decided to put it there..

from behind these walls-listen up

wow..i love ronnie..ronnie and from behind these walls are amazing..i'm with ronnie all the way..by the way,their other song is about drugs and escape the fate..ronnie ROX!!

anyway,saw sam the other day..she was quite surprise when i 'ran' up to her..haha..well that's because she only saw me once before with my glasses..haha..well i think that's enough to explain..=D

2009-02-16T18:27:00.000-08:00

"i saw you in my dreams before i met you"

well it's true..i saw her in my dreams before seeing her..

cassadee-candles

cassadee,she's cute right?.i like her hair..she's like my ideal kind of girl..haha..plays guitar,can sing,pretty,cute and that kind of hair..i know someone that have the hairstyle,pretty and cute..but don't know about singing and playing guitar..haha..anyway,cassadee is way cuter than any girl..haha..i wish i could just jump into the video and hug her..haha..enjoy the video though..

2009-02-15T21:47:00.000-08:00

"don't fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you"

well i kept falling yet nobody caught me..

hit the lights-sincerely yours............

i like this song and video..i should have post this on valentine's day..-.-

last night was hell..it was freaking hot..i even slept at my sofa in my room..since it's near the window..but it's still damn hot..i can't even sleep..-.- at last after reading some book about "the last days of the earth",i got to sleep..haha..that book is interesting..it's about how many people disappeared suddenly..all the innocent people in the world has just disappeared leaving only their clothes all intact..they were like dematerialised..like those alien weapons..it was touching because this pilot had lost his son and wife which he never gave much attention..all he was left was his house and his daughter..haiz..why am i talking about books?.haha..ok gonna get ready for work..

2009-02-13T05:36:00.000-08:00

"the song for my dead soul"

i lost my confidence..

no videos..

went shopping yesterday..WEE~
bought not much..1 smart shirt,1 band tee,1 skeleton jacket,1 printed tee,2 polo tees and one wrist band..haha..quite cool..haha..anyway i'm lazy to blog..not feeling good..

2009-02-09T19:41:00.000-08:00

"let me hold you while i still can"

there she goes..

you're so inviting

no matter how hard i try,life never seem any better..

nothing interesting happened the last few days..just work and going out..except for my burn mark on my arm..haha

2009-02-06T21:23:00.000-08:00

"baby don't cry,when i say goodbye"

the chorus for my new song..

Aerosmith-i don't want to miss a thing

i just happen to come across this song..so i decided to just put it here..nice song anyway..

escape the fate-you're so beautiful

yes,she's beautiful..cute as well..XD haha..well i've been thinking..should i ask her out on valentine's day?.hmmm,some yeses and nos in my head..haha..well what you guys think?.it's still a week away..help!!haha..just tag..=D

playing my guitar as usual..that's my life now i guess..haha..

2009-02-04T20:56:00.000-08:00

"finally i fell in love"

hahs..its a secret..=)

no video again..

wow..my guitar has a pink sock tied over its first fret..haha..all black and white except the first fret..cool..haha..

i was falling too hard that i'm killing myself..finally i fell in love..=)

2009-02-03T18:45:00.000-08:00

"i'm a dying rose by the street"

*sigh*

no videos..

work: fun and wonderful
home: boring
outing: barely went out in e past 2 weeks
family: as usual
love: inter twined and confused
health: still the same except some deep cuts from an oil can
mental state: nearly mad
guitar: still wonderful
internet: still flactuating
life: totally inside out and upside down

this time i don't know what i did to you..i kept my promise..not like you..

2009-02-01T06:21:00.000-08:00

"are we gone forever?"

are we?

sugar taste sweet on your tongue..
salt taste salty on your tongue..
medicine taste bitter on you tongue..
when you put these 3 things together,you do not taste any..because you have lost the sense of taste in your tongue..
it shows that you lose touch with your feelings..you have become heartless and selfish..
argh,it's hard to explain..haiz..

2009-01-30T05:02:00.000-08:00

"mind boggling"
~~~~~~~~~~~~wow~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hizaki- race wish

god damn it..she's a girl..at first i was hesitant to decide whether it's a guy or a gal..haha..but she impresses me..wow..what a girl..enjoy the video..

2009-01-28T19:17:00.000-08:00

"life is about people around you"

2009-01-27T19:41:00.000-08:00

"i hate to hear that word"

the word is 'goodbye'..

the confession- no angel

i don't know why i want to put up this video..haiz..

yesterday while working,i was supposed to clean the fryer..then it was choked when i was draining the oil..i used this long steel to poke it..but it slipped and hot oil splashed on my hand..luckily i wore gloves..if not it would be worst..it's freaking painful..

haiz..damn shooting star..

shooting stars make your wishes come true..but it also takes away what you care about most..

2009-01-25T19:54:00.000-08:00

"you made my heart stopped for a moment."

=) this rarely happens to me..

no videos..

working in the evening is like entering a war zone..everytime i enter the kitchen,it's like CHARGE!!haha..orders will keep on coming and coming and coming..waves and waves of attacks..one mistake,you'll get scolded by the manager..-.- and today,i'm going for war..i hate evening shifts..haiz..haha

2009-01-24T06:27:00.000-08:00

"you made my heart skip a beat"
=) seriously she did..i hesitated at first,but i did it at last..haha..

no videos today..too lazy to find..

i did something reckless today..haha..at work,i hard to do stocking..one carton each is not light..it's like 5 kilogram..imagine you had to carry that here and there?.my arms are aching..another thing is,when i was trying to open the carton,i used this big kitchen knife..then i didnt realised that my finger was under the tape..so i just sliced the tape until the point it was stuck..i pulled it and at the same time,my fingers hurts..haha..soon i noticed that my finger was blocking the knife..haha..another reckless this is,..maybe i dont need to say it..too private i guess..haha..

well that's all for today..i'm tired and also waiting for my phone to beep..=D

2009-01-22T20:24:00.000-08:00

"you're the best i've ever seen"

only pravin knows who i'm talking about..=)

i was browsing at youtube..just watching stupid videos..i came across this video..i just realised that there are a lot of better looking girls out there..especially emo girls..emo girls are like the best looking..i'm not joking..watch this video..all of the girls in the video looks great..=)

don't start calling me a pervert..it's true..they look great don't they?.one of them looks like someone i have seen before..

2009-01-20T17:46:00.000-08:00

"you make me who i am"

................

Burn The Virgin

new band..=) new interest..=)

2009-01-19T18:23:00.000-08:00

"wishing upon a shooting star"

i saw a shooting star when i was at Pasir Ris park..it was beautiful.. =)

no videos today..too lazy to find..and i'm so damn tired!!

by the way,my work is fun..just that it's too tiring..especially with the heat and the noises of the knife and chopping board,the grills,the fryer and the dishwasher..-.- the fun part is that,you can cook..haha..but the best station to be at is the pasta,pizza and bulk prep station..the most relaxing station..haha..i usually go to that station because it's the best..haha..

2009-01-11T05:41:00.000-08:00

"what's right were never wrong"

erm,it's true..:)

Dragging dead bodies in blue bags up really long hill.........

well what do you know..it's already my 101th post..wee~ ..finally my blog is 101 post strong..haha..well that's good for a damn fucked up lazy blogger like me..:)

2009-01-10T00:20:00.000-08:00

"So keep my casket close,your heart beats under the floor.it haunts me in my dreams,but nothing as it seems."

2009-01-08T19:24:00.000-08:00

"i desire what you will give"

i'm waiting for something in return from you..

As You're Falling Down......................

the reality will never run from you..and there's no use running from reality..we still have to face it in the end..no matter how far you run,no matter how indifferent you are trying to be and no matter any odds,it'll still catch up with you..

RESULTS IS ON 12!?WHAT THE FUCK!?
ok don't talk about monday or results to me..i'll go nuts like peanuts..haha..i hate mondays..i really hate mondays..from now on,i call monday,TUESDAY..but tuesday is still tuesday..so my calender will be,
TUESDAY,tuesday,wednesday,thursday,friday,saturday and sunday..
cool right?.

2009-01-04T18:43:00.000-08:00

"choosing your destiny is deciding your fate"

i can change my destiny if i want to..

When I Go Out I Want To Go Out On A Chariot Of Fire.............

i'll never die if you are still unhappy..

it's harder than you know..

2009-01-04T05:31:00.000-08:00

"stabbing the beast within me with my own veins"

anger and fear forced me..

The Day I Left The Womb......

this song is about parents..but it can also go out to friends..listen to the song carefully..maybe you can figure out the message behind it..

i wish i could just shoot myself in the head..just pull the trigger and i'm free from my problems..now it hurts in the worst way when everything is just not the way i wanted..

i know something is wrong..but i couldn't figure it out..haiz..

2009-01-01T19:18:00.000-08:00

"never have i set my eyes on someone like you"

:) you are the one,sweetie..

The Guillotine..............

My Apocalypse.............

Friends And Alibis...............

i just picked out this songs randomly..all of it is nice..very nice..:D

Escape The Fate ROX!!!

the best vocalist ever..RONNIE RADKE!!
we're gonna miss you..

by the way,Ronnie is in jail now..so he can't sing or perform..he's going to make his own band..and i'm gonna support him..:D Ronnie Rox!!

2008-12-31T21:09:00.000-08:00

"i shall slay her to taste her sweet deceptive blood"

i hate traitors..especially those hypocrites that surrounds you..

Something.............

The Flood..............

two music videos by Escape The Fate..both sang by the new vocalist,Craig Mabbit..and without their second guitarist Omar Espeniosa..these songs is all about girls..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!PULL YOUR EAR!!

it's my first post this year..yay!!haha..to just bring life to this awful blog..i'll post an editted photo of me..check it out..

cool right?.do i look ROMANTIC?.haha..

i hope your new year resoulution comes true..:) 2008 is a great year for me..maybe to most of the human beings on this planet..haha..well 2008 is just a memory that shall be tresured..i really miss those times..the fun,joy and togetherness of 4e2..haha..maybe i shall list down what are the most memorable things that happened in 2008..

MEMORIES OF 2008
-january,
nothing that i could remember..haha..
-february,
seriously,i don't remember..haha
-march,
ah yes obs..the experience to at last go on a real camp..:)the sun,mozzies,heavy bags,whiny groupmates,the smelliness and the fatigue..haha..
-april,
my birthday..i don't really remember what happened on that day..haha
-may,
oh mother tongue 'o' levels..yeah..very scary..haha..
-june,
Bintan trip..yes..the most exciting trip of the year..i still remember..the stupid hill that we have to hike..haha
-july,
-.- no memories of it..haha
-august,
yes national day..the day when the graduating class shouted like hell maybe due to stress..haha..
-september,
teachers' day..:D performed and quite fun..can't describe with words..
-october,
is graduation ceremony in this month?.haha
-november,
the last few 'o' level papers..:) and job hunting which produce nothing..
-december,
i spent the most on these month..and a lot of outings..:) the most fun,New Year countdown..:D

that's all i guess..i have very poor memory..or maybe because i spent most of this year studying..haha..well i miss studying..

2008-12-30T21:28:00.000-08:00

"i'm dying every second of my life"

you are getting older each second..which means you are getting closer to death..

Reverse This Curse........

another song by Escape The Fate..i have to admit,all Escape The Fate songs are very nice..super nice till i'm addicted to all of their song..well this song is about a girl that seems to be unworthy to this person..this person seems trap in his own curse..everytime he falls in love with a girl,it never turns out right and his relationship just crash each time..but he met this girl..she seems different from the rest..from the way she moves to the way she speaks..so this person might think that this girl is the right one..and she's the one that could free him from his awful curse..the moral of the song is,take your time to get into a relationship..it takes time..soon you'll get the right one for you..

ok..it's going to be 2009 soon..time really flies by..is it a sign that the world is going to end soon?.haha..silly me..well everything just happens so fast..it was like last year i took up a.maths..so fast..oh ya..i did took up a.maths last year..haha..

last week,i opened my wardrobe for the first time in months..usually i would just hang my clothes outside or fold it in my basket..haha..i just realised that i really need to revamp my wardrobe..it's filled with dark and neutral colour..like black,white,blue and green..only these colours can be found in my wardrobe..serious if i were an emo,my wardrobe is like heaven..

ok let's list down my new years' resolution for next year..
1)get a job..(seriously,i'm dying at home and out of cash)
2)no haircut till my hair covers my head..(don't imagine)
3)do a live gig..(we'll drag Benson on stage)
4)play post-hardcore music instead of punk rock..
5)get a second guitarist and a vocalist..
6)paint my room yellow..(again)
7)get my own laptop..
8)buy a brand new set of guitars..(epiphone or fender will do)
9)get myself a girlfriend before i run off with another guy's girlfirend..haha

that's all i suppose..:D well happy new year people..:D!!!

2008-12-30T05:22:00.000-08:00

"i've done things in my past that i'm not proud of"

seriously i did something bad last time..you would not want to know..

Cellar Door........

this song may seem sadistic..because it talks about tearing apart this girl..but that's literally..the whole song is about how angry this person is with this girl after she just ditched him..they went through both good and bad together..but that girl found somebody else and left him..so this song is all the expression of an angry guy..

Escape The Fate is a great band..most of their songs i can understand..that's great..not like Avenged Sevenfold..they are way too complex with their lyrics..well i love Escape The Fate!!wee~

i'm dying at home..-.- there's absolutely nothing to do at home..any suggestions?.ok let me tell you what i did which should be entertaining when i'm at home studying last time..
1)i would lie down on my small square table..(i fit perfectly)
2)i roll on the floor while singing some stupid songs or just mumbling some nonsense..
3)play my guitar while upside down..(it's fun)
4)crawl under any table which fits..
5)take a very long shower..(don't try this..i'm used to it..)
6)shout into a pillow..and when my sisters look at me,i'll just give them a silly smile:) ..
7)finally,i talk to myself..

ok give me more suggestions..i even tried playing tennis with my frying pan at my void deck..i can't find the tennis racket..it's freaking heavy to swing..but i like the metallic sound..*dung*..haha..i had eyes staring at me when i was playing...and i swore not to do it again..unless somebody plans to join me as well..haha..

2008-12-29T05:10:00.000-08:00

"i walk with shadows"

that's because i'm hiding myself..

there's no sympathy for the dead..

once a person dies,there's no need to care about them..they are just biodegradable matter left to rot or incinerated..no point crying or sobbing over it..what's done is done and could never be undone..we someday will join them as well..every being on this planet called "Earth" shall live and die..it's just a matter of how long and how you live or die..

new year's coming..yay?.

2008-12-21T19:35:00.000-08:00

"my life is filled with anger"

:D yup..i'm an angry man..grrr..haha

"Just don't trust these liars at the door
(you have to find a better way)
Kill the ones that have these answers for
(the questions I will never say)"

this lyric is from Escape The Fate-My Apocalypse..it's about traitors..and these traitors happens to be your friends..the people that surrounds you..well some of this traitors called "friends" are trying to make your life miserable..they disguise themselves as your friends..they are the mother fucking hypocrites that try to make you lose all your friends..liars that has no feelings..only hate and deception..if you know that one of your friend's friend is betraying him/her and you never tell them before they find out,you are considered a traitor as well..you shall die alongside those heartless creatures..find your true friends..some of those you thought were,are just pure evil blooded mother fuckers..

that's the meaning of that part of the lyric..the vocalist still had time to explain about the whole song during the song..haha..cool right?.

answer this in my tag box:

1)you do not have a tennis racket.but in a few minutes,your tennis tournament is going to start.what kitchen utensils can you use as a substitiution?
2)what fish only comes out at night?
3)what happens to a guy wearing jeans with his zip undone?

2008-12-17T20:05:00.000-08:00

"finger on the trigger to my dear juliet"

i can't find the photo..anyways,it means leaving me suddenly..

east coast yesterday was quite cool..i learnt how to roller blade..:) i was lazy to use guards..so i,a beginner,skated almost half of east coast park without protection..i did fall a few times..even when the grass patch is a arm's length away and i can't balance,i purposely rolled and rolled and throw myself on the grass..haha..very itchy though..but i did know the proper way to maintain balance..oh ya..i hate uphills and down hills..especially downhills where you have to turn..there was one part with quite a steep slope..wei yang already grabbed the railing..but i was too stubborn..i keep saying,"look i'm doing fine..i can control.."..but i can't slow down and can't turn,i just went head on with the railing..lucky nothing happened..haha..and the worst didn't happen..i didn't flip..haha..after returning,we just went home..but at least my first time skating wasn't that bad..i had no wounds and bruises..:D amazing..haha

i'm bored at home..

2008-12-14T20:28:00.000-08:00

"not loving you is harder than you know"

i don't feel right..

i feel horrible..i feel horribly wrong..:( there's nobody to help me now..i have to go through this myself i guess..i'm sick,i feel awkward and i feel horrible..i hope she understand..well it just sucks for me..:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2008-12-14T19:54:00.000-08:00

"i guess it's time to move on without you"

giving myself time till Christmas..i hope by then,i'm over her..

guess what?.i didn't sleep last night..i was twisting and turning on my bed all night..and was freezing because of the cold weather..seriously suffering from severe sore throat and fever..yesterday celebrated Benson's birthday..well seoul garden was such a killer for me..my stomach could not even take in anymore after just 3 plates..damn full..and the worst part,i was having bad cough..i tried to talk loudly and shout but i cant..haha..

anyways,i'm just bored to death..being jobless sucks..damn it..haha..actually i wanted to post something..but i guess not..too personal i guess..:)oh ya,i've made my new song..totally completed with drums,bass and piano..at last i'm done with my new song..just left with the lyrics..

i'll post two lyrics..one for the blog song..the other is the video song..:)this one is the blog song..

Escape The Fate
"not good enough for truth in cliche"

Hurtful words,
From my enemies of the last five years,
What's it like to die alone?

How does it feel when tears freeze,
When you cry?
The blood in your veins is twenty below.

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window,
Make sure you're still alive,
Just in time to kill you,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

I can't take this (take) anymore
I can't take this (take) anymore
I can't take this (take) anymore
(I cannot feel what you've done to me)
I can't take this (take) anymore
(What you've done to me)

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window,
(Window)

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

this is the video song..this one is for you,joan..

Escape The Fate
"harder than you know"

You said this could only get better
There's no rush cause we have each other
You said this would last forever
But now I doubt if I was your only lover

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I gotta wait (I gotta wait)
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain
So if I'm the fire, you've become the rain

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl you're driving me so crazy

And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go (I guess I'll have to go)
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)

So I'll make the call
And I'll leave today
I'm gonna miss you cause I love you baby
And I'll make the call
I'm leaving today
And leaving always drives me crazy

Leaving always drives me crazy

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl You're driving me so crazy

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

2008-12-10T19:23:00.000-08:00

"your love is my apocalypse"

she'll never love me..if she does,i'll be dead by then..

it's the new album of escape the fate..this song somehow captured my inner senses..it's rather touching song..it proves that a metal band can make a slow song..slow,meaningful and melodious..yeah..it's nice..check it out..:)

long,tough week for me..no jobs:(..imagine you applied 18 jobs and none called you back?.when you called them back,they say just wait for their call..it's ridiculous to keep applying jobs when you know there's no more vacancies..now i know what is the meaning of "economic meltdown"..haha..can't deny that..

i'm just totally bored..

that song,"harder than you know"..it symbolises my situation right now..but she wouldn't understand..she'll never understand..

2008-11-30T07:07:00.000-08:00

"i'm lost and disoriented"

no mood..

jam on saturday..but no mood..tried out chapter 4 on drums,quite cool..but no mood..no inspiration and motivation..well this describes all..

BORED!!SO BORED!!SOO BORED!!

2008-11-28T22:33:00.000-08:00

"i'm just a boy with a dream"
yeah..i got a lot of dream..too many dreams..haha..

well just to describe how i feel this week..

BORED!!SO BORED!!SOO BORED!!

2008-11-26T18:15:00.000-08:00

"should friends be more?"

hmmm..yes for some..no to others..well i don't care..haha..

ok..where to start..i didn't post since sunday..ok..lets talk about my work..haha..i got it through my mum..it's at pasir panjang..just beside west coast park..so all i had to do was,when in the booth,write the trailer plate number and container number..key in the container number in the computer,switch on intercom and shout,"PAY BY WHAT!?"..yes that's what i did..then the guy outside will say either "CASCARD"(as how he said it) or "ACCOUNT"..then must shout back into the intercom,"INSERT CASHCARD AND PRESS RECIEPT!!"..haha..that was easy..but then the i/c said i had to do outside too..then i followed the guy whenever the container comes..so the second day which was tuesday,it was my turn to do the outside job..so container comes..ask the uncle,"PAY BY WHAT!?"..then uncle say "cashcard" or "account"..then if account must check if the container number matches the account container's list..if yes then can proceed..if cashcard,the guy inside will ask,"PAY BY WHAT!?"..then i'll shout "CASHCARD!!" or "ACCOUNT!!"..the guy inside will reply,"INSERT CASCARD AND PELES 2 LECIT"..which means insert cashcard and press 2 reciept..haha..funny guys..i ask them,"where's the toilet?."..guess what they answer?.they said,"ok.."..haha..i was nearly laughing..haha..anyway they are from China..can't speak english..but at least i understand some of what they saying ok..

their names are FA MING and YI SHANG..they kept looking at girls..then i kept saying "oh woo-ing girls ah?.i tell chris.."..then they say,"no,no don't have.."haha..quite idiotic..but funny guys..since there were 3 lanes and 3 of us,when there's any vehicle stuck,we'll rush..who reach there first gets one point..haha..

but now i don't want work there..early on i told my mum that i don't want to work there..then yesterday i go interview and don't want go the work,my mum scold me..now we're fighting..then yesterday i only have $1 pocket money for the whole day..she don't want give so let her be it..haha..yesterday applied around 5 to 6 jobs..now just waiting for the calls..haha..

tonight,my ncc friends will be going to new zealand..and damn crystal..she's going there again..shit man..her luck..well i want to go there again if i have the chance..maybe 5 to 6 years down the road..haha..take care and have fun guys..enjoy all you want..take note,the people there don't like ASIANS..haha..well they are somehow friendly..just don't do anything stupid..

ok to dearest person X..i'll be around later..just have to look around..take care..

2008-11-19T06:30:00.000-08:00

"and all things will end"

yup..just like the avenged sevenfold said..all things will end..but not probably all..those that we nurture and care for will not end till we really have no choice but to let go..haha..well it seems like a difficult week for me..really difficult..

once i thought i was a free man again..but suddenly,problems came flooding in..like the rain during hurricane..slowly its recceding back to the ocean..well partially..the rest still remains..and those that remains aren't the easy ones but the difficult one stays..haiz..problemetic again..why now?.

well when there's bad,there's good..my mum just offered me a job..a carpark cashier..just take down numbers and i don't know what else..she said i had to start this monday..and it's 2 days morning,2 days night and 2 days off..looks like i cant go the outing..so sian..well i got nothing much to post..very sombre now..

2008-11-17T01:20:00.000-08:00

"don't say we're not meant to be"
hello!!i'm back..i had 3 bbqs in the last 4 days..most of my shirts smells like it too..haha..well many things had happened last week..some bad and some cool things..well to start off,lets blog about the chalet..

day 1:
my gosh it was difficult to make everybody believe that i'm not going..well i'm going..i just wanted to give them a surprise..pravin and i came very late that day..going 11..after we got there,it seems boring..but inside,the boys were playing mahjong..and the rest,i've no idea..haha..so after the drinks came,we drank..luckily nobody were drunk..by 3,zhi wei,pravin,steven and i were outside..steven was crazy man..haha..well after that everybody went to bed when it started drizzling..and i was alone outside..i just sat there doing nothing..haha..maybe thinking..i dunno..i was the only one awake the whole night..

day 2:
those who woke up early,we went to watch sun rise..apparently,we were watching the wrong end of sunrise..haha..so we got fedd up and left..once back,they all went to sleep again..fuck man..and i was alone again at the living room watching tv..soon by 11,i cant take it..my eyes were heavy like shit..so i just fell asleep on the sofa..haha..and that was refreshing..then suddenly pravin,jianhua ,chao teng came back with bicycles..so the rest wanted to go,but i ended up walking..i went to changi village just to buy a blueberry drink..haha..quite idiotic..then bbq..phew,i stood at the pit for more than 2 hours since the pit started..haha..my eyes were dry like shit..since i was cooking the food,some turned up to help..like joan and serena..but both of them devoured the prawns just after it was cooked..my gosh..when are the other gonna eat prawns..in the end,only they ate the prawns..after that celebrated timothy's and zhi wei's birthday together..i went cycling alone to och,the broadwalk,changi village and back..just need some fresh air and some space to think about somethings..then cycle to changi beach again with pravin and chao teng..when we came back,the drinks came..drank..and most of us were high...haha..like me..in the end i fell alseep..haha..

day 3:
nothing interesting..went home and slept..haha..

that's all for chalet..some funs and some bad..well just hope there's other chalet..

2008-11-06T04:17:00.001-08:00

"Shameless"
All Time Low
Hips sway and lips lie
Like clock-work she's in control
Of all the right guys
And I'm still waiting

Fitted hats and a car alarm in
her high-tops with her favorite song
She's showing off
The way she walks
It's on...

Take me, show me (Whoa oh, whoa oh)
The corners of your empty room
The trouble we could get into, just
Fake it for me (Whoa oh, whoa oh)
Disregard the footsteps
And we'll never tell a soul

Tonight I'm finding a way
To make the things that you say
Just a little less obvious

I walk a fine line
Between the right and the real
They watch me closely
But talk is cheap here

Like a weightless currency
Your words don't mean shit to me
I'm always cashing out

Take me, show me (Whoa oh, whoa oh)
The corners of your empty room
The trouble we could get into, just
Fake it for me (Whoa oh, whoa oh)
Disregard the footsteps
And we'll never tell a soul

Tonight I'm finding a way
To make the things that you say
Just a little less obvious, I confess
Tonight I'm dressed up in gold
You've got me fucked up and sold;
You talk like you're famous
You're shameless

Tonight I'm finding a way
To make the things that you say
Just a little less obvious, I confess
Tonight I'm dressed up in gold
You've got me fucked up and sold;
You talk like you're famous
You're shameless

Tonight I'm finding a way
To make the things that you say
Just a little less obvious, I confess
Tonight I'm dressed up in gold
You've got me fucked up and sold;
You talk like you're famous
You're shameless

it's the lyrics to my new blog song..it's about a girl..she's trying to get every guys attention..showing off her wealth and body..she do everything as if she's famous..but actually she's not..she's just an ordinary girl..she pissed this guy off because they settled for a date but ended up the girl criticising the guy..that's what the song is about..yeah..haha..i'm good..(gene simmons line)well this song was quite nice..actually very nice indeed..

today was tiring..went to a lot of places..first,i met up with Benson..then we took bus and meet haiqal later in the bus..we both can't call..so i 'miss call' to signal him that we've board the bus..so we board..at Haiqal's bustop,we saw him but he didn't saw us..he called me and benson..but we can't answer..so we just waved at him..haha..and we waited for him at northpoint bustop..there,we don't know where to walk..outside or underpass..haha..we fought over it and i realised it's freaking hot..so we went by the underpass..secondly,our first stop was Bugis..we were suppose to go to bras basah..can get off at 2 stations..so we fought over to whether to go out at city hall or bugis..and we got out of bugis..haha..and we walked to bras basah..there,benson had a tough time selecting his guitar..almost spent 30 mins there..to give him space,i and haiqal went touring around the shop..hitting cymbols and blocking people's path..haha..quite idiotic..finally,benson made up his mind and bought a black guitar like mine..but of different brand..well he can't stop admiring it..

then off to wisma..there to repair my phone..once there,took a number and we toured the sony centre..played psp and ps3..dumb games..but still fun..so we went to sit back at the service centre..and it was my turn..the lady said "yes?"..i took 10 seconds to respond..haha..after that i showed her my phone..it she goes blah,blah,blah..and i was yeah,yeah,yeah..if my phone were able to run on the new software,i'll have to pay $26.90..but if my phone had to change the mother board,it'll cost me hundreds..and the repair warranty only last 3 months..and the last time i repaired it was,three months ago..fuck man..so i decided not to repair it..

we were all starving..so i and haiqal die die want to eat kfc..so we walked around almost the whole orchard to find kfc..and there were none..seriously none..so decided to go to plaza singapura to meet sheena they all..guess what?.i and beson was stopped by this girl..she said spare 10 seconds..so i counted..she was like 'ok not like that i mean'.."i'm from a low income blah,blah,blah"..in the end,we both gave her $2 a sign of sympathy..haha..so then we went to eat kfc..at last..food..after benson bought his food,i and haiqal go..so i was messeging..haiqal pushed me to a counter where there stood this two short girls..one was pretty,the other(venus,her name)was just short..so i took order from the short,cute and pretty one..i was a dumbo there..she gave me my change..and i was like "it that my change?"..haha..i totally forgot..so we were laughing..including the girls..so i wanted to get the chili sauce..but there's not saucer(the one that put chili lah)..so i went back to the counter where haiqal is ordering..and i didn't know what it was called..so i just showed them my hands cupped..then we were laughing like mad..haha..lucky the manager not there..haha..and while eating,sheena they all came by..said hello and left..

so on our way back,nothing happened..because all were exhausted..benson went home while i and haiqal went to causeway point..he wanted to check the draft of a namecard..after that decided to look for alex's birthday present..so haiqal came back..and he asked me where were his contact lens..and they were like folded and off-centred from his pupils..so i asked him to rub a little left..and the thing disappeared..haiqal ran like hell to the toilet..but i cant' chase him..my leg where too sore to move..haha..that was scary for me and for him..well after we just went back..so tired..now need to prepare for alex's present..surely finish by 2am..haiz..haha..ok..that's enough for now..i'm damn tired..chill out~wee~

2008-11-04T18:34:00.000-08:00

"my friends are my everything"

really they are..all of them..haha..

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TOH TIAO LI!!

so fast 16 ah..haha..may all your wish come true like wishing upon a shooting star..

well this song made me think about all of my friends..but i don't have the track..haha..now is like the dead period of my life..yes the dead period..i don't know what to do..no idea what to do..my leg is swollen..now can't walk properly..very painful if i were to walk..because played soccer yesterday and Ernest accidentally kick my leg..then at Sentosa,it swelled till i have to limp like hell..Zhi Wei said i look cute walking like that..haha..it hurts ok?.:p tomorrow i'm not sure i'm going to accompany Benson to buy his guitar or not..but i need to send my phone for repair and find a job..i don't know if i can make it..haha..maybe i'll just try..

i don't feel right now..can't explain how i feel..been very sad nowadays..enough for today..no mood..:(

2008-11-02T04:39:00.000-08:00

"i've been walking alone all this while.when will you walk with me"

that's me walking alone on a 'sky bridge'..cool right?.credit to Haiqal who went down on the floor to snap this photo..haha..both of us went to changi airport yesterday..since we cannot study,we decided to tour the whole airport..even looked at girls..but Haiqal kept saying,"look that girl is pretty.wah lau eh.soo pretty."..and i'll go,"ok,go ask her number."..i kept saying that when he sees a pretty girl..quite irritating..but just to make him satisfied..haha..

well this is me on the travellator..emo-ing is the word..well turned out quite fine too..wow!!anyway,Haiqal and i was two monkeys running and laughing to and fro the underpass..well firstly,we haven't been to this part of the airport before..below it was the MRT..cool right?.ok..the best part,i got off the first travellator..then i hold this railing in the middle..guess what?.i got an electric shock..haha..ELECTRIC SHOCK!!i tried touching it again but there's no more..so both of us continued walking..then,the mystery..we got static shock of each others elbow..we were like,"WTF!!!!!"..but we laughed at the same time..haha..freaking funny..should try again..and this two monkeys went on the travellator to hope that we get 'statically charged'..so we go off..do the E.T hand gesture..and we got static shocked again..haha..we tried it a few times..and we kept getting shocks of each other and the railings..pretty cool..but we got exhausted and left..haha..fun day i shall say..wee~

ok..this is for someone to see..i personally asked the person to read..
hello person..thanks for telling me all the reason for you know what..quite a pathetic reason..sorry for the harsh language..ya..it really is pathetic..that guy is different from me..i am never like him..only physically..but its like unfair..i tried everything..even the things i never tried before..what happen during the times that we spent?.remember?.the nights,the meeting and the movie..what were going through your head?.anyway,thanks for complimenting..i tried to find another..but i told you i can't and never will..what wrong did i go?.just because of that person you have to put others into 'crisis'?.what more should i give?.what more should i do?.will it help if i change?.a year is a long time..

ok i had enough..i want to study social studies already..it's near the end..time to do what's right..ignore what i can't forget..
goodluck tomorrow my fellow friends..:)all the best..we can do it..

2008-10-31T05:38:00.000-07:00

"my life isn't a movie.it's a story to be told."
ya..it's really not a movie..i just hate my life..well things are about to change around here..look at my new blog skin..isn't it woderful?.haha..it's time to totally change..since what i am now is not accepted by somebody..so i have to change..right?.changing the fonts' colour,the way i type the posts..
hmmm..well,o levels are almost over..only 3 papers left..wee~..i'm soo very excited..yay!!haha..it's like last week was last year..wow!!a lot have past this 4 years..some friendship will end and some will live on..secondary school friends can be called life partners in another way..i hope all of us will stick together like brothers and sisters..(some only)
ok..i don't feel alright now..i've been through alot in a week i shall say..my phone broke down,my Ipod dream was shattered,my watch stopped working,somebody punctured my dad's car(all 4 tyres),i accidentally cut my finger with a pen,my bed headboard landed on me and somone just can't make me stop saying sorry..this week was the worst week of my life..i hope next week would be better..i hope..
well talking about the chalet all that,i don't i'm going..somebody said it's for invited guest..well i recieved nothing regarding the chalet..which means i'm not invited and definitely i'm not going..wee~..nevermind about that..i don't expect people to take pity and go like,"awws,so sad..just go lah..heck care them.."..i don't care..i also not going to go if invited or not..due to special reason..
Uncle,if you reading,you know when..:)

2008-10-21T07:07:00.000-07:00

"Pink is the new black."

cool isn't it?.
i know..
well black is black..
why would pink be the new black?.
ya,black is a colour..
pink is a colour too..
but why pink is black when black is black?.
nevermind..
haha..
just trying to relieve my stress..
hmmm..
do you know what is the dumbest thing i've said?.
nope?.
of course you don't..

it's this "I'll never come back ever in 10 year!!I'll never come back..And when i come back..."

just look at it..
isn't it contradicting?.
haha..

"I'LL NEVER COME BACK..AND WHEN I COME BACK...."

just look at it..
haha..
hmmm..
well my exams so far was quite alright..
so far so good i have to say..
now i'm pretty pressurised..
because of something..
well don't want to say much about it..
All the way people!!end of O levels is just 23 more days..
we're near..
don't give up..

2008-10-15T07:23:00.000-07:00

"i believe in angel.the kind that heaven sends.i'm surrounded by angels.but i call them friends."

my friends are my life..
they brought me joy and laughter..
i don't know what will happen with me without them..
what would happen to me if i never met them?.
maybe in boys home?.
haha..
who knows..
well everything happens so fast..
hmmm..
i can't put it to words..
it's unexpressible..
ya..
graduation?.
i never thought this day would come..
but it still does..
and today was my o levels practical..
chemistry was quite bad..
i didn't know how to answer..
haha..
well all i have to say is,it's done..
just move on and concentrate on monday's paper..:D
o levels is here..
i can't concentrate already..
i don't know why..
i hope i can make it till 11 november..
well this topic makes me feel weird..

well good luck for your o levels my friends..
study hard..
never give up..
"WE'LL NEVER WALK ALONE"..
like what Mr Bala said..
haha..
you've come so far..
the end is just an arms' length away..

2008-10-03T06:34:00.000-07:00

"Living goes by fast, catch your breath
and it will pass you by.
And it won't last, to sulk with the memories you hold."

time flies..
it's almost like the spped of light..
why didn't anybody invent this.,
the speed of time..
haha..
isn't it great..
well it's only a few more days till i cannot see the smiles on my friends' faces..
i'm going to miss those times..
haiz..
well o levels are almost here..
time to study hard..

SPECIAL REPORT!!
Alex has developed a new cancer through the use of mobile phones..
this cancer is incureable..
this cancer is named after Alex himself..
it's called Alex Ear Cancer(AEC)..
this is caused by overuse of mobile phones..
the radiation emitted can cause such cancer..
beware..

2008-10-01T06:56:00.000-07:00

"when you're half-way through the tunnel and you see the light at the end,go straight and never look back."

that's the situation i'm in..
and also my friends..
o levels is at the end..
and we're working hard to reach there..
for some of us.,
we're crawling.,
for some.,
running.,
but for me.,
i'm walking and running..
haha..
well not going to say much today..

2008-09-30T06:20:00.000-07:00

"Don't change the way you think of me,we're from the same story."

life has a beginning and an end..
life begins when you are born.,
life ends when you die..
everybody will have to face death..
it's just a matter of when and how..
just to think about life.,
sometimes it does hurt..
sometimes it does cure..
but still it's our life..
it's not who you are that defines you.,
but it's what you are..

hello..
i'm damn bored here..
really tired and quite crestfallen..
well,that's me alright..
my emotions are as unpredictable as the weather..
can't blame me for that..
something just crop up and there it goes..
i'll be sad or dejected for who knows how long..

let me tell you a story..
it's quite sad for me..

once upon a blue moon.,
just at the edge of the cliff.,
sat Angel..
he was thinking about his past..
it was such a disaster that it haunt him every night..
that year,Angel managed to get into further education..
he was quite a silent and shy guy..
it took him some time to settle..
amongst the crowd,he saw somebody..
some one that grabbed his attention for the first time..
well he realised that something suddenly changed..
he met Ashley..
a beautiful girl in his class..
at first he was shy to tell her that he had feelings for her..
but as weeks went by.,
he gained the courage to tell her this,"i love you"
both were at the state of shock..
for months,they avoided each other..
they didn't talk but just text each other..
but soon,the managed to get used to it..
Angel made his first move..
well,that started quite well..
and soon they,they were on good terms..
they talked and chat with each other..
sometimes they have little arguments..
but it's nothing..
close to a year Angel had feelings for Ashley..
a few times they met and chat..
Angel saw his chance..
but Ashley told him something..
she doesn't wan them to meet anymore and just remain as before..
text each other and just chat..
Angel was heart broken..
his heart sank like titanic to the ocean bed..
he was very despirited..
but there's nothing he could do..
he can't force her..
till now,Angel is still in shock..

well pity Angel..
he has to go through all that for a girl..
maybe i'll show you this picture..this was the x-ray scan of Angel's heart..
to Ashley,what have you done to Angel?.