Wednesday, February 27, 2008
fucking bored!!
help me..
i'm studying like no tomorrow..
damn it..
help..
no mood to update anything..
because nobody also reads my blog..
better off closing it down..
damn it..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 5:05 AM
Friday, February 22, 2008
To the right I can see a church, I took a step in that direction first
But to the left there was a watering hole where they were whisky
drunk and now that's where I wanna pray
cross country today..
was damn tiring..
but still i had great fun..
our class was the most chaotic..
because we gathered and shouted o levels..
haha..
and when mr tham said go.,
we all shout E2..
haha..
damn fun..
i jog for about 2km..
after that all started slowing down..
and as for me.,
acting as the last man..
pushed and encourage them to run..
pulled them along with me.,
tell them to run with me.,
keep asking them if they're alright..
haha..
was fun but..
i had to sacrifice my timing and run with them..
even E1s also i pulled them..
i ran with jolene,nancy.,
benson,timothy.,
alex,joan.,
yuwon,crystal.,
zulaikha,hidayah..
and zulaikha finish ahead of me..
if i hadnt pulled her.,
she would walk all the way to the finish..
for the first time.,
i finished with alex and joan..
lucky i asked joan to keep running..
and kept asking her if she's alright..
but at least i managed to finish with 2 people i care the most..
haha..
and my leg still aches..
my last cross country..
and i think i did well..
haha..
then at the playground.,
i accompanied canice..
she was too weak to walk..
haha..
lucky i got a bottle of water to let her rehydrate..
and rain took picture of us.,
which is me,canice and shamala on the slide..
and all shots,i wasn't ready..
but the last one i looked up..
haha..
then near the bustop.,
all don't know where to eat..
i got fed up and just sat on the grass patch..
haha..
later all joined..
out of nowhere.,
canice also join..
hidayah called me a baby..
humph..
actually i acted like one..
haha..
ok enough of today..
lesson for the day..
the phrase above.,
is about me..
choosing the right path..
either be good.,
or be bad..
and i'm still walking on the path..
and still deciding..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 5:39 AM
Thursday, February 21, 2008
"Jesus Of Suburbia"
[Part 1]
I'm the son of rage and love
The Jesus of Suburbia
From the bible of none of the above
On a steady diet of soda pop and Ritalin
No one ever died for my sins in hell
As far as I can tell
At least the ones
I got away with
And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me
Get my television fix sitting on my crucifix
The living room or my private womb
While the moms and brads are away
To fall in love and fall in debt
To alcohol and cigarettes and Mary Jane
To keep me insane and doing someone else's cocaine
And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me
[Part 2: City Of The Damned]
At the center of the Earth
In the parking lot
Of the 7-11 where I was taught
The motto was just a lie
It says home is where your heart is
But what a shame
Cause everyone's heart
Doesn't beat the same
It's beating out of time
City of the dead
At the end of another lost highway
Signs misleading to nowhere
City of the damned
Lost children with dirty faces today
No one really seems to care
I read the graffitiIn the bathroom stall
Like the holy scriptures of a shopping mall
And so it seemed to confess
It didn't say much
But it only confirmed that
The center of the earth
Is the end of the world
And I could really care less
City of the dead
At the end of another lost highway
Signs misleading to nowhere
City of the damned
Lost children with dirty faces today
No one really seems to careeeeee
[Part 3: I don't care]
I don't care if you don't
I don't care if you don't
I don't care if you don't care[x4]
I don't careeeeeeeeee
Everyone is so full of shit
Born and raised by hypocrites
Hearts recycled but never saved
From the cradle to the grave
We are the kids of war and peace
From Anaheim to the middle east
We are the stories and disciples
Of the Jesus of suburbia
Land of make believe
That don't believe in me
Land of make believe
And I don't believe
And I don't care!
I don't care! [x4]
[Part 4: Dearly beloved]
Dearly beloved are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
or lack of a better word, and that's my best excuse
[Part 5: Tales of another broken home]
To live and not to breatheIs to die In tragedy
To run, to run awayTo find what you believe
And I leave behind
This hurricane of fucking lies
I lost my faith to this
This town that don't exist
So I runI run away
To the light of masochist
And I leave behind
This hurricane of fucking lies
And I walked this line
A million and one fucking times
But not this time
I don't feel any shame
I won't apologize
When there ain't nowhere you can go
Running away from pain
When you've been victimized
Tales from another broken home
You're leaving...
You're leaving..
You're leaving...
Ah you're leaving home...
i'm quite happy today..
no more eyeliner which means.,
i'm not bored..
and finally i got the wits again..
thanks joan..
now i can smile sincerely..
laugh at jokes.,
make jokes..
again..
haha..
thanks so much..
now i can more happier..
since yesterday.,
i managed to study..
but the area canice choose was like a..
monsoon storm area..
the fans damn strong..
her papers and mine keep flying away..
haha..
well all thanks to joan i can study again..
i love you soo much..
thanks thanks thanks and many more..
thanks..
haha..
cannot stop..
well got to go..
want to play guitar..
haha..
bye..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 6:03 AM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
i'm back..
just for this..
because joan don't want to talk to me ever again..
haiz..
and my eyeliner getting thicker by the day..
haha..
i cant help it..
it's what i do when i'm sad..
since i got a straight facial expression..
my eyeliner tells it all..
and next sunday,.
the first jam session for mcp..
taste of ink..
haha..
and i will see if i can get to compose my song..
titled joan..
it's edited version..
because of what recently happens..
this is going out to you,joan..
the promise i made to you.,
i will always hold it..
even after what you have said..
you're still my friend..
don't do like this can?.
i'll hold my promise till you say yes..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 6:20 AM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
what wrong have i done..
till i get this kind treatment..
all i didn't do anything wrong to you..
my mistakes have been forgotten..
yet why do you have to do this?.
joan.,
how long do i need to go on with this?.
haiz..
joan can you please forgive me?.
please..
i think i cannot do anything right if you do this..
please joan..
i will do anything for you..
i would even die for you..
come on..
you didn't reply my messages..
you didn't answer my calls..
you blocked me in msn..
you don't want to talk to me..
what wrong have i done to you joan?.
everything has settled down..
but you still didn't let go of it..
why?.
read this joan..
this is especially for you..
if all i have done before have hurt you feelings.,
i'm very sorry..
very very sorry..
forgive me alright?.
i didn't mean..
sometimes i didn't realise the mistakes that i've did..
if you tell me.,
i'll try to make up for it..
now i have to make up for my mistakes to you..
sorry alright?.
please?.
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 5:57 AM
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
happy now joan?!
i delete already..
erased..
gone..
disappear..
yes..
thanks so much for the "help"..
thanks yeah..
i appreciate it..
what wrong have i ever done?.
why is this undesirable treatment has to happen to me..
i didn't ask for this..
all i ever wanted is to make others life better..
instead i created a problem..
not easy to live trying to make everybody happy..
its a dismal life for me this past few days..
it's one problem after another..
first..
my god mother died last sunday night..
i didn't get to visit her..
my heart sank like titanic..
sank and split into two parts..
how can i ever live my life in happiness..
second..
alex..
ok i know its my fault..
but its also his fault..
you can't always push the blame on me..
eventhough i said.,
i'll always give in..
and that people take as weakness..
nevermind..
let suckers like me suffer..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 4:29 AM
Monday, February 4, 2008
i'm sort of lazy to post anything..
i don't have any mood today..
right after maths class..
both mr chia ..
mr chia damn bugger..
said one to one exchange our assisngment..
with our test paper..
fucking bastard..
asked me to go back..
at least i can scold him and do like this __..
and i did done to his face..
the bell went and i just walk off..
i don't care how much i get for my test..
at least i know i did my test right..
and i tried my best..
even if i fail.,
i'll just work a little more harder..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 5:31 AM