Thursday, December 27, 2007
it comes in black..
with white lining..
it's wonderful..
my fingers..
comfortably sits on the string and fret..
it's excellent..
i tried a lot of songs..
really nice to hear..
tried synyster's solos..
it's wonderful..
but i need alot of practice..
yes i tried taste of ink..
just the bridge part i didn't get it..
need to find some sources..
really it sounds good..
i even tried dear maria,count me in..
the chord works..
haha..
well stop talking about my guitar..
well my life still sucks..
still trying to win her heart..
well she said don't like her,.
but i'm going to lose if i haven't tried right?.
well i promised her something..
but she got me telling her about me and iris..
well i hope she will listen..
i think i'm ready..
ready to tell the world who i like..
haha..
well wait till tomorrow..
or even new year..
i'll tell you guys on new year..
well go to go..
bye!
happy holidays..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 4:39 AM
Sunday, December 23, 2007
taste of ink
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 7:41 AM
"The Taste Of Ink"
Is it worth it can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungryI
i'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free
[Chorus]
So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
We'll drink and dance the night away
We'll drink and dance the night away
[Chorus]
savor every moment of this
savor every moment of this
As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there[x2]
And won't you think I'm pretty
And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
[Chorus]
savor every moment of this [x2]
the song that i'm going to work on..
hope to perform it next year during lunchtime concert..
with band mates muhd and benson..
muhd on bass and vocals..
benson on drums and background vocals..
and me lead guitarist and background vocals..
haha..
wild dreams right?.
but no dream will come through if you don't work for it..
so have to make it real..
well basically today..
went to look for my guitar..
went to peace centre..
ariana fork acoustic guitar..
black with white edge lining..
quite nice..
it cost $120..
very nice..
just that my fingers are used to classical guitar..
so when i tap down on a string,.
so when i tap down on a string,.
i touched the next string..
quite irritating..
but it'a fork guitar for god sake..
that's what i told myself..
but my parents ask me to be patience..
so i have to..
just to satisfy their hearts..
but too bad..
i have to wait longer for my present..
can be considered as christmas present..
haha..
to all my friends..
merry christmas..
and happy new year..
may your presents make you happy..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 7:25 AM
Friday, December 21, 2007
we can never depend on someone..
actually only for a while..
but then all would be gone..
nevermind..
my arms still aches from carrying the huge high jump mats..
and i mean very huge..
first 2 mats are small..
it's 1.5 m by 3m..
the huge one..
2m by 4m..
it's filled with only sponge and air..
still it's heavy like hell..
imagine only 7 people..
just 7 people carrying 5 mats..
3 per mats..
some even 2 per mats..
damn fucking heavy..
but after we got the big ones near the range,.
we went for 10 minutes break..
all were lying on the mats..
jumping and lying..
then the difficult part..
to get the mat in the rifle range..
the small ones were easier to throw by the gap..
but the huge ones,.
we have to fold it to half..
then throw it down..
shit..
that was fucking tiring..
all my energy was drained..
but the last one made me jump on it..
till the ceiling light almost ripped off..
but i climbed and jumped..
damn fun..
wish could do that again..
but we have to get the mats in fast..
then the wire cover came off..
damn irritating..
then the general meeting..
ah yes..
that's when the fun part begins..
talk shit..
haha..
but at the same time need to focus..
all went smoothly..
hope to get 15 sec ones to join yfc..
and i heard that majority of the sec ones are matured..
then i shall take charge of the sec ones..
easier to manage..
but still i'm overall in-charge..
shit..
damn it..
but being trainer is still great..
haha..
well i think that's enough for that..
now i'm going to risk my life next year..
get my ears ready..
because the whole world is starting to know..
who i like..
not qiu ling..
sorry qiu ling if i play with your feelings..
shouldn't have hid it i guess..
but here it goes..
i love ****..
haha..
find out yourself..
happy holidays..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 1:20 AM
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
"A Little Piece Of Heaven"
Before the story begins, is it such a sin,
for me to take what's mine, until the end of time
We were more than friends, before the story ends,
And I will take what's mine,
create what God would never design
Our love had been so strong for far too long,
I was weak with fear that
something would go wrong,
before the possibilities came true,
I took all possibility from you
Almost laughed myself to tears,(ha hahahahaha)
conjuring her deepest fears(come here you fucking bitch)
Must have stabbed her fifty fucking times,
I can't believe it,
Ripped her heart out right before her eyes,
Eyes over easy, eat it, eat it, eat it
She was never this good in bed even when she was sleeping
now she's just so perfect I've never been quite so fucking deep in
it goes on and on and on,
I can keep you looking young and preserved forever,
with a fountain to spray on your youth whenever
’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
and a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry
You had my heart, at least for the most part’cause everybody's gotta die sometime,
We fell apart,
let's make a new start’cause everybody's gotta die sometime, yeah
but baby don't cry
Now possibilities I'd never considered,are occurring the likes of which I'd never heard,
Now an angry soul comes back from beyond the grave,
to repossess a body with which I'd misbehaved
Smiling right from ear to ear
Almost laughed herself to tears
Must have stabbed him fifty fucking timesI can't believe it
Ripped his heart out right before his eyes
Eyes over easy, eat it, eat it, eat it
Now that it's done I realize the error of my ways
I must venture back to apologize from somewhere far beyond the grave
I gotta make up for what I've done
’Cause I was all up in a piece of heaven
while you burned in hell, no peace forever
’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
and a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry
You had my heart, at least for the most part
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime,
We fell apart, let's make a new start
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, yeah
But baby don't cry
I will suffer for so long(What will you do, not long enough)
To make it up to you(I pray to God that you do)
I'll do whatever you want me to do(Well then I’ll grant you one chance)
And if it's not enough(If it’s not enough, If it’s not enough)
If it's not enough(Not enough)
Try again(Try again)
And again(And again)
Over and over again
We’re coming back, coming back
We’ll live forever, live forever
Let’s have wedding, have a wedding
Let’s start the killing, start the killing
"Do you take this man in death for the rest of your unnatural life?"
"Yes, I do"
"Do you take this woman in death for the rest of your unnatural life?"
"I do"
"I now pronounce you"
’Cause I really always knew that my little crime
would be cold that's why I got a heater for your thighs
and I know, I know it's not your time
but bye, bye
And a word to the wise when the fire dies
you think it's over but it's just begun
but baby don't cry
You had my heart, at least for the most part
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, We fell apart,
let's make a new start
’Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, yeah
But baby don't cry
well this is the lyric for my blog song..
quite long..
but it's about a story..
a murder story..
it's about a story of a guy that murders this girl..
stabbing her fifty times..
and eating her organs..
then he realises his mistakes..
by then it's too late..
he tries to make up for his mistakes..
by her grave..
but her soul was restless..
so she took her revenge..
he killed him the same way that he killed her..
stabbed fifty times..
and take out his heart..
but they reunite in afterlife..
and they got married..
how sweet to see two souls marry in afterlife..
haha..
well that's the story..
the life i wish to never have..
but it's intresting..
haha..
well got my 4th offer to join a band..
should i join?.
because all the people in the band i know..
sort of..
play as a guitarist?.
lead or rythm?.
shit..
i always want to form a band..
but not join..
haiz..
because if i join,.
i will not know what skills are they at..
until after few jamming session..
but if i form,.
you know what level and how good your members are..
that's the different..
but it's a good offer..
but i still need to think about it..
haiz..
that's my life now..
first,joan..
then this..
then what?.
yfc?.
argh..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 5:15 AM
Saturday, December 15, 2007
welcome to a new world of shit..
well basically i just changed my blogskin..
cool isn't it?.
with my favourite band picture at the top..
let me introduce them to you guys..
from the left,.
johnny christ,.
jimmy sulliven;the rev,.
m.shadows,.
zacky vengeance,.
and finally my favourite guitarist,.
synyster gates..
they are avenged sevenfold..
released their fourth album late october..
all their songs were cool..
they tried something new like orchestral music..
like my blog music..
brave individuals trying new stuff..
wish i could be like them..
too bad my band got disband..
and my songs were all not tried out yet..
only 2..
which was damn nice..
haha..
but too bad didn't get a chance to record it before hand..
well now school is just 2 weeks away..
but cca open house preparation have already started..
but planning is not going well..
because we don't know what to put up..
precision drills?.
hands on flight demo?.
line dancing?.
well our yfc can do many things..
just that not enough manpower and time..
and i've become the school trainer..
so must plan for them..
haiz..
tough work..
but it'll all benefit the club..
i guess so..
anyway things in my life are getting messed up..
i've got to let her go..
it's her wish..
i don't going against it..
but it's too difficult..
because i made her a promise..
nvm..
enough about my relationships..
haha..
i'm going to make nvyfc recruit as much recruits than before..
must beat the 32 meter mark..
the highest sec 1 intake in syfc..
haha..
well i want to play some games..
bye!!
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 9:22 PM
Friday, December 14, 2007
argh..
tired like hell today..
went to seletar to help the secondary ones..
build their plane..
kept my patience to its minimal..
really need to be calm when teaching them..
and now i know what it's like to be a trainer..
student get cut,.
trainer's fault..
student misbehave,.
trainer's fault..
student this and that,.
trainer's fault..
except the good stuff they get the credit..
after we helped them,we don't get any..
eventhough we don't ask for it..
but at least say thanks..
too bad..
life is always not easy..
erm..
well i just realise that 6 years ago..
haha..
don't feel like helping people in the time being..
but the goodness in me just cannot stop flowing out..
haiz..
it's like covering a dam with many leaks..
haiz..
help me..
???? help me..
haha..
maybe you guys don't know what i'm talking about..
haha..well got to go already..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 6:53 AM
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
the last day of trainers course..
the D day or happy day..
i was anxious whether i passed the course or not..
but i'm a bit confident to pass..
but guess what?.
i really pass the course..
yay!!
today also we recieved our red collared shirt..
we even wore them for some shots..
to be placed as memories..
yes..
this course is very precious..
it's the turn point of my cca life..
now i can sit on the chair while the rest fall in..
i can change the system if it's effective..
i can order my aviation instructors to help me out..
i'm almost the same rank as my senior trainer..
i can open the syfc workshops..
the joy of being a trainer..
but all the tough works and training of the course is just the beginning..
and after that have passed,.
we can take it a bit easy..
just that the cca open house will be very soon..
and have a lot to prepare..
now since i have my men,.
i will try to use them to make my cca time better for the new recruits..
haha..
now i sound like a trainer giving a speech to the new recruits..
haha..
well i overall i think that my friends and juniors are looking up on me..
because i don't know why they hate my best trainer..
Fadhli..
haiz..
they just don't know the time to play and the time to be serious..
during cca time,we're tariners and they're students..
after cca time,we're friends..
my policy..
whatever happens in yfc,stays in yfc..
simple and clear..
i guess..
ok..
enough of my cca..
well my life really sux lately..
not because of the course..
i'm angry at people for no reason..
even angry at myself..
even damaged my bed..-.-
that's what upsets me more..
well i could be quite violent when i'm upset..
but really depends..
and i don't show my anger by my face or action..
it's just by what i write or talking..
if i write crap and talk crap.,
then i'm amgry or sad..
wait..
i always talk crap..
haha..
well there's still tomorrow to post..
:D
so i'll end here for today..
and for the trainers that graduated today..
CONGRATULATIONS!!
you all deserve the red collar shirt..
may we hang out together like this course again..
thanks for the wonderful memories..
i'll tresure it forever..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 6:38 AM
Monday, December 10, 2007
oh shit..
trainer course is damn tiring..
and tough too..
2 weeks of course..
damn tiring..
then still a trip to langkawi for 5 days..
2 nites in the bus..
and only 3 days at langkawi..
shit..
first new zealand..
which was fun..
then this trainer course and langkawi trip..
which is tough and tiring..
haiz..
but all good stuff begins with a bad start..
so maybe facing all the challenge now is better,.
then facing it in the future..
i guess..
that's what i learned since i've been in the course..
there's no easy way out..
well to share my experience with you..
first,about leader..
a leader does not leave his men behind..
a leader also leads the way for his men..
leader be with his men no matter what..
a leader shall make fast decisions..
a leader never blames his men for his mistakes..
secondly,about team..
a team is a group that care about each other..
a team is a group that works together..
a team is a group that gives in to each other..
lastly,friends..
a lot of new friends to be found..
a lot of new experience to share with each other..
crack new jokes..
laugh together..
that's the good thing about being in a leadership course..
haha..
then got a few bad points also about this trip..
never plan when you are at the place itself..
well i don't know what to continue..
so got to go already..