Saturday, January 12, 2008
damn it..
i'm freaking tired today..
all aching from head to toe..
my legs felt like it's going to come off..
the cca open house wasn't a big success..
but at least the plan that we planned since december.,
came through..
all thanks to the officials,hillgrove warriors,.
christopher,kevin and russell and the gang..
they made this cca open house successful..
but in my whole 3 years of recruiting member.,
this was the worst year..
only 18 students..
8 from express,3 from technical and 7 from academic..
our target of 10 express were not even met..
shit..
this is because of the location and the timing of the sec 1s come..
our cca was like a uniform group..
if you join uniform group,.
you cant join yfc..
that policy made many sec 1s don't want to join..
and they saw the uniform groups first..
so they would have a higher percentage of signing up with uniform groups..
we were located at the floorball court..
nobody wants to go there because it's very far from the gate or anywhere..
maybe this year's cca sucks..
but the demonstration all are very magnificent..
only the recruitment and the location of booth..
we should be located at the uniform group rather than the floorball court..
because we will stand out from the uniform groups..
shit..
well i don't wish to continue..
what's done cannot be undone..
haiz..
the week ended in exhaustion..
the whole week i went home at 6+..
and my body is lucky to be used to it..
used to 3 days of non-stop work..
i had no sleep for 3 days training..
shit..
my chest is now in agony..
yesterday and the day before.,
i did a lot of carrying of things..
and even do some workouts..
shit..
let me tell you what i dreamt last night..
it's to me bloody scary..
i was walking to a very strange place..
i'm sure it was a hospital..
because there are beds,sick people..
and i'm in the emergency ward..
i don't know what i was doing there..
all of it was like so real..
all of a sudden,.
i saw alex,joan,n my whole class and friends..
they ran towards me..
i thought they were going to ask me is that someone alright..
but instead they went right through me..
then i realised that i'm no longer human..
i'm a soul roaming the hospital like the sick people i saw..
i went to where all my friends crowded..
i saw my body..
lying still..
with blood on the coversheet..
alex,some other friends..
cried all over me..
some even started to say what they had done wrong..
i listened to one of my friend..
he said that he didn't realise how much i had sacrificed..
then i caught sight of joan..
she said she didn't mean to break my heart..
she was trying to keep away from me so her friends wouldn't disturb her..
because of that.,
it caused my death..
she also said she've trusted me enough..
but maybe it's too late because i'm dead..
well it's just a dream..
and maybe dreams are messages to us..
to ask us to improve..
i'm not sure of the messages yet..
i'll figure it out anyway..
alright..
i'm going to rest and play some games..
bye..
Posted by ~angel arthas~ at 1:08 AM